sky blue illusions

2009-03-22T19:40:00.005+08:00

What a day today!

Saw so many of my old friends like Jia Wei, Qin Hui, Chen Hui, Li Jun and Chen Wei. Missed all of them so much. Apologies to Jia Wei and Qin Hui, i really forgot your names. It's really very awkward lohs. Haha.

Dear Dear, Carole and Sin Cheong celebrated my birthday inadvance...

Had some drinks.

My mini Bday cake.

Dear Dear and me. Loves.

Drats, she gonna be away for a month and i'm missing her already... =[

2009-03-02T12:04:00.003+08:00

Today is the day i'm going to India for military training. Will be there for 2 weeks. Miss my pig pig Kerlyn and all my friends. I'll try to meet up when i come back. Which should be 14 March.

Terminal 2 @ 1630hrs, SQ408 (I think)

2009-02-16T03:41:00.007+08:00

OMG...

I didn't know after so such a long period of no blogging, people still bother reading my blog! Well, that's not a bad thing. Pretty heart-warming really! *cross my heart*

Anyway, the most important and also the most frustrating reason of my lack of blogging is due to my computer breaking down. But i got a brand new one n it kick ass. I'm enjoying playing all the latest games on it on. Left 4 Dead rocks!

Anyways, some Valentine weekend pictures...

On Vday eve

We had some Jap food... Very nice! Think it was Pasta De Waraku or something...

She made me this... Awww!

The love letter... Heh.

14 Feb, a little visit to the Singapore Discovery Center. OK, i know it's not romantic enough but hey! We had fun! =]

Laters!

2008-12-19T16:43:00.002+08:00

Sometimes won't you wonder how life changes so drastically? One moment you're on cloud nine and then again you find yourself bombarded by multiple problems.

I'm just so sad.

Sometimes i just want to give it up. i dunnoe how long more i can endure her nonsense. I love her, but she's just such a phantom. I just dunnoe what to do with her. Do they sell the book of "How to understand women for the dummies"?

Just only recently, about a month back. i went for a X-ray on my left knee. Only to discover that there was something wrong. The bones in my knee looks weird and i hope the specialist whom i'm going to see can provide me with hopefully, positive answers.

Worse of all, i can't find anyone to talk to now. I just lost my best mate in camp. We just suddenly drifted apart. No explanations, no nothing.

With so much on my mind, i guess i won't have a Merry Christmas this year. But i certainly hope you will have an enjoyable one this year.

2008-12-06T13:40:00.008+08:00

Hehe! I'm back after a long absence. Well, being rather busy with my Trade Course. What's that? It's actually a period of learning various weapons operated by Armour Infantry men like me. Now currently learning the infantry training phase. I'm so busy...

Well, some pictures of me and my baby gal...

I just love this 3 pictures with the Vivo Xmas tree! =]

I miss all my friends. NS is really taking away 2 of my precious years...

Fuck it...

2008-09-28T18:15:00.004+08:00

Arggh. So bored. I feel so lonely without my dear gal. 5 more days till she returns lohs. So bored so bored!

Anyway, check this out.

I'm currently training to use this weapon lohs. The 84mm recoiless anti-tank weapon. Heavy like fuck lohs. NB, and the LIVE FIRING is this coming friday. Which means i can't pick my gal up at the airport. NS sucks!!! Sianzations...

Hehe. Finally managed to get a birthday present for my dear gal. I'm still disappointed that the present i tried to make failed lohs. Hopefully the gift i bought will suffice. =x

Just a week more till she returns. Endure i must.

2008-09-20T20:06:00.010+08:00

*Looks around*
*Sweeps off the spiderwebs*

LoL! Damn, it really has been sometime since i blogged. I'm sorry about it because i don't want to be always talking about my NS life. Oh yes, i POP liaos. Private le. Heh. =]

I'm actually quite bored now. My dear gal just took off on a plane to Hainan for her school community service trip. Won't seeing her for about 2 weeks. Tat's not the worst part. I can't even SMS or chat with her on the phone. Damn it sucks.

Oh well, just some pictures to share...

Went to the BBQ that Zilin and Anthony organised. Managed to catch up with the peeps at the island. Miss them all dearly. Miss the fun days at work. Heh. Photos courtsy from Patrice's blog.

Heh. Missed this blur gal the most... As a friend i mean.

The "made from scraps" birthday cake i made for my dear gal. Haha! Promise to make it up to her soon when she comes back...

Went to "New York" to celebrate our 1 month anniversary.

Yum! But nothing beats having a meal with your most beloved ones...

Just can't stop loving her...

Went to Clarke Quay for the Lantern Festival exhibition. i love the backdrop of the picture...

And a kiss to compliment the beautiful surroundings. Hehe. ;p

2008-09-01T12:15:00.004+08:00

It has been about 3 weeks since our love blossomed. And it's really going well. I couldn't ask for more. I just feel like I'm in 7th heaven now. I'm just speechless...

However, life is not a bed of roses. PERFECTION is some what a distant dream. Sad to say, I have my doubts but i have more trust in us. It's moving kinda slow but SURELY in the right direction. I don't know what the future holds but all i want to do is to treasure the present, smile back on the memories and sweeten up the future...

I love you deeply and I'll never let go, no matter what...

2008-08-17T13:09:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates. Been a little busy. Guess you guys will know about it sooner or later... Haha! You know what i mean... hmmm?

Anyway, some major happenings lately in my life...

- Completed my field camp successfully. It was very tiring but FUN!
- Lost some weight and my tummy alot slimmer now. =]
- And 11th August 2008, a day to remember. >>--("v")-->> =]
- Finally broke my Pull Up egg and managed to do 1 pull up. Heh. More to come.
- A visit back to the island and was damn glad to see everyone doing fine.

Some pictures...

Went to Marina Square to catch the fireworks on National Day with dear's friends. Haven really seen the fireworks for quite sometime. And the best person to watch it with... Haha! who else? Heh! ;p

Then before the fireworks, the fighter jets made this heart shape with the exhaust from their afterburns. Quite nice lohs! Perhaps the heavens is hinting something to us? hmmm.

Day by day,
night by night.
I never felt so right.
I wish i could,
forever hold your hand and hug you tight.
And gaze gently into your lovely eyes,
say my heartfelt words with sincerity,
and end it sweetly,
with my kiss on your forehead.
A promise of my undying love,
for you and only you...

My dear, I Love You.

2008-07-27T17:56:00.003+08:00

Watched Dark Knight with her. Had a rather average day. The reason being i was bothered by some stuff...

Then we went to bugis today, just a few hours earlier. It was definitely much more fun than yesterday night. Wanted to buy some clothes but in the end, my hands empty and she got a bag instead. DUH!

I'm sorry i couldn't answer your question properly when you asked,
I was tormented by all the worries i have in my heart.
I don't know how to say it out,
I'm afraid.
I really want to get to know you more,
So i hope you'll open yourself to me a little more.
My heart says you're a nice gal,
And you are the one.
But my worries,
My heart don't understand.
I want to tell you all my heart tells me,
But it is really not the time to do so.
I hope you understand and feel,
The exact same way i feel of you.
Cause i want no one else but you...

And tell me how i'll have to live 2 weeks without you. =[

2008-07-20T13:28:00.002+08:00

As promised, i'll let you read and i did not change any of the contents. I wonder why i promised to let you read... But yeah... You must keep in mind as this is the place where i pour out all my thoughts and feelings into... Arggh... Dunnoe what i'm talking about also...

So let's continue

Watched Hellboy 2 and it was great. Totally different from the first Hellboy which was so boring. But i think i'm starting to bore her already. Is there anything other than movies that we can do? Hehe.

Then we went to Esplanade again. See, told you i was starting to bore her. Hehe. But i really enjoyed the walk and the talks. I always wondered if she felt the same. Or am i simply just wasting her time?

And everytime we sat close and touched, my hearts beats so fast that sometimes i really feel like it's gonna pop out. I think this means something to me i guess. Oh well...

And sometimes she will ask why i'm staring into space and keeping quiet. Telling her i'm thinking of something was a lie. Deep down i was scared. Scared of what i will not say...

It's just like Bungee Jumping. The fear before and during the jump. But hopefully i'll get to feel the kind of satisfaction that one will feel after the jump...

All i really want is to know her better, know her well more. That's all i want for now...

Haiz...

2008-07-13T15:53:00.004+08:00

Watched "Dun mess with Zohan". It was damn funny lahs. Everything was so funny lahs. Haha.

Den we walked to the esplanade, and enjoyed the sea breeze at the Merlion till sunrise...

We sat close,
She was cold.
I gave my hand,
So she could hold.
Her head was heavy,
So i lend her my shoulder to lie on.
She hugged my hands tight,
i felt warm.
Den i got cold,
and she knows.
She held my hands,
and i was warm once more...
I can't help but to want to have more...

2008-07-06T17:30:00.002+08:00

Watched a movie yesterday night. Hancock was damn funny. How i wish i was a funny superhero like him too. Haha.

Thank you for taking time out, the movie was great.
But what was even better was your presence and your laughter.
It brightened up my day.
The walk to the bus stop and the 2 hour phone talk in the wee hours,
bought a smile to my face.
I just hope to get to know you a little better, that's all that i really wish for.
And promises of more movie treats,
just adds on to my delights.
I will make each of my days count,
So i can see that sweet smile of yours...
Once again...

=]

Ok. Back to reality, back to camp i go. =[

2008-07-05T13:35:00.002+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen!

I'm proud to announce that out of 19 recruits in my platoon, I'm one of the 7 that is allowed to book out this weekend.

Why?

It's because i never Chao Keng lahs! Haha. The 11 others had to stay because they missed too much training. And i'm also proud to say that i didn't miss any training this week. Haha. I'm strong ok... Hehe.

No lahs, I'm not so strong de. It's because someone motivated me. The reason being that if i were to watch a movie with her today, i must make sure i get to book out mah. So there you have it, my summary of my week in camp...

2008-06-28T11:36:00.002+08:00

Yo people, i'm out of camp. Yesterday night was my first book out day. Damn happy to interact with civilization again lahs. Imagine seeing nothing but Botak guys like me running and sweating as compared to checking out the babes walking on the street. You get what i mean? Haha.

Anyway, i can't say much about the training or whatsoever regarding my camp. It's an offence so if you want to know, ask me lahs!

What i find the best or rather the unique thing in my camp is that the Sunrise and Sunset is beautiful there. When i have my free time, i'll always take a look at the sky and it's always beautiful. Even when it rains! I might just love my life at camp...

2008-06-13T03:00:00.002+08:00

Friday, 13th of June 2008, 9.30a.m.

Friday the 13th!!! OMG!!!

Haha!

Eh. This is probably my last entry for quite sometime. You most be thinking that Mr Tanker Boy can't sleep.

You're half right.

Spent my last few hours of 12th June with a few people I'm close with. That's about it actually. Oh yes, i did receive a SMS 30 minutes ago from an unlikely source. Kinda freaked out but i guess it's part and parcel of life...

I just wanna say thank you to all my friends, past and present.

To the Sentosa peeps:

Yo people! Take good care alright! I'll miss the island life and work. Born Attractions, Die Attractions they say. How true! =]

To a particular couple CN & H:

Please ar, stop quarreling can? Both of you don't even want to give me some peace before i go NS. Tsk Tsk. Haha! Joking. Stay together and stay loving. i want to go Europe with you all after i "Chu Bing" ok? Choi Choi! Touch Wood!

To Zilin and Anthony:

You two reminds me exactly like the couple mentioned earlier. Take care and stay loving hors! =] And Anthony, i still want my $200! =[

To Patrice:

Eh. You ar, when i come out of NS i expect to see a mature and pretty nurse ar! Hopefully slimmer. ;p You must learn to be independent in all aspects of your life. I can't be your adviser for the next 2 years you know? Heh! Take care hor. =]

To Porky:

Well, to add on to the SMS i sent you. I just want to say SORRY for walking out of your life. I'm really sorry but i had to. Guess by now you should have known why. Anyway, take care.

To the people who think they should been named but not:

Hey you! Sorry lahs, I'm getting old so forget to mention you. Look at the time now? Tiring you know? Anyway, Take care. Will miss all of you.

=] =] =]

2008-06-06T04:39:00.002+08:00

My week so far...

Swimming trips canceled due to my strained thigh muscles. =[

Missing all my dear friends at sunny Sentosa island. =[

Lovely car rides in the night across JB for supper before the god damn fuel ban kicks in. =]

Staying at home all day playing my beloved PSP. =] =] =]

And returning my uniform and name tag. =[ =[ =[

Had a great night as my friends told me all their NS stories. Can't wait to go for it actually. But the physical exercise is so arghhh... Haha! Damn excited lahs! Can't wait to just leap into the arms of my future and leave my past behind... =]

*I glad you're happy... Because it's all that i care...

2008-06-02T01:20:00.001+08:00

The Memoirs of life on Sentosa Island...

to be posted soon, so watch this space.

2008-05-31T01:04:00.003+08:00

Why does everyone say that i'm stupid when it comes to a certain topic? Is it wrong to do what you best think is the best possible solution? Do you know just how much thought i had to put in to try to ease all this pain and suffering?

Even if it's one sided or not, the kind of person that i am wants the best for the other. And since it's so god damn obvious that it's impossible for me to do the best for someone, isn't what i'm doing the easiest way out?

I admit i'm selfish here. But who isn't? I strongly believe in the Chinese saying " Temporary pain is much better than permanent pain ". Am i wrong? Tell me!

Enough said.

And yo bitch, next time understand the situation first before you make assumptions. i was taking about work. Thank you and FUCK OFF. Go run to your sweet little boys for entertainment.

What a complete waste of my time, effort and money...

2008-05-30T13:13:00.002+08:00

I wish i had someone to talk to now. I bottled too much inside me and i kinda feel terrible.

Anyway, i'm going to change my blog address soon...

the-tanker-boy.blogspot.com

will let you guys know soon. =]

2008-05-29T21:37:00.002+08:00

Light at the end of the tunnel...

I see it.

Because for everything that ever happened, this is how you reacted. haha! fine by me. now i can stand up proud, hold my hand over my chest and say...

I"M GOD DAMN RIGHT I MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE.

GOOD BYE.

Be happy for me my friends, for i am enlightened. I'm now absolutely ready for the next stage of my life!

2008-05-28T00:41:00.002+08:00

Time really flies. before i know it, it's only 5 more days left till my last day at work. just can't believe how time really flies.

I'll miss my two and a half years there. so much memories to recall. the memories i loved and hated. everything... i'll miss them.

I'm tired, time to sleep. till next time.

See Ya! =]

Oh yes, i'm thinking of changing my blog URL. but got no idea what to change.

And today someone said to me that i don't look as cheerful anymore. heh. how can i be cheerful? i'm devastated by so many things...

Kk. really time to sleep. ZZZZzzzzzz....

2008-05-26T18:24:00.002+08:00

Aikido class in a few hours time.

But i dun really feel like going. when i signed up for this course, i wanted to protect someone else before i even thought about myself. Everything i did, i will think about the person first...

But nevermind, from today onwards i will protect myself. becos that person doesn't need my protection anymore. or rather, i chose not to anymore. i will protect myself and only myself from now onwards...

Sadly, i've always seen negative events that happen before my eyes that never fails to change my perception of Love.

The way a certain couple i know behaved when they quarreled on yesterday's night was hideous. And the latest news i got today was them breaking up. you can never imagine how difficult, how awkward and how helpless i felt when i tried to help them through everything.

Having no choice to use my last resort, i asked that person for a little favor, for help. But all i got was a "i couldn't be bothered cause it's your problem and i won't make a difference" crap. it was so cold that i got a flu last night. heh. just kidding.

Love is just so painful more than it is blissful. that's my conclusion over this years. so i'll guess i'll stay single. but you'll still see me flirting with other gals though...

heh.

2008-05-22T15:56:00.000+08:00

rain was damn heavy. but i like rainy days. heh.

i think i've pretty much made my decision. be it right or wrong, i'll live with it...

2008-05-20T23:21:00.002+08:00

how many days have it passed?

it felt weird, yes. But... i'm surprised i got used to it so fast. hehe.

it's ironic to say...

As the time gets shorter, the distance between gets further... heh. crap.

i'm actually depressed but glad at the same time. is there a proper word or phrase for this? tell me if you guys know ok?

if it pains me to have something i love and treasure, i rather endure more pain and discard it...

that's the way it will be for me.

2008-05-17T20:16:00.003+08:00

Ever since i returned from BKK, the confusion i had still lingers. and so much had happened but i still can't clear the doubts i have.

my frens say...

Go for it. you're the best thing tat ever happen to her. no one take care of her better than you, the care, the concern and love. blah blah blah...

but i say...

i'm not good enough, in so many aspects. i don't want to waste her life and future away cause she deserves better. there's so much pressure. i'm inadequate in so many ways.

seriously, i really dunnoe wat to do. if only i don't have to serve NS. i might have given it a try. be it a success or a failure. time indeed is a factor...

guess i've decided, if it's meant to be. if she's unattached after 2 years, i will work hard to make it happen. but after 2 years, will everything remain the same? both of us will by then have changed. be it for the better or worse. no one knows...

damn it, really hate this. how i wish tomorrow, she'll find someone so i dun have to be suffering. her love, if any; is suffocating me to no ends.

i want to try but will i like always, fail again???

answer me anyone? please?

EDIT:

after awhile, i recalled. i used to have this fren called Pui Fai aka Ah Fai and Ah 5.

he used to have this very close bond with my former click. but then for some odd reason which i have no idea wat, he decided on the disappearing act on all of us. even though i met him a few times, he's still as friendly as always. so i wonder if wat he did was really wat he wanted. hmmm...

which brings me back to my own story...

i tried to do the disappearing act countless times but always, either she or myself will talk myself out of it. i always wondered if this is wat i really wanted. well, for me it's 50/50.

see, if i disappeared, i would not tink about it. i would be happy. but if i don't talk to her, i would gradually feel sad and unhappy. so just wat the hell do i want? ARGGH!!!

well, 26 more days till i make that final decision...

=]

2008-05-10T01:21:00.002+08:00

it's over... i give up...

the relationship tat i treasured the most just ended. i fucking wan to cry but i will hold it all the way back.

all i wan to say is that for the past years, you lighted up my life when it was the darkest and i loved you deeply for that. i treasured you more than myself cos i wanted the best in life just for you.

but all fairytales come to an end. it just did on me.

it's really fucking painful. but i'll live with it. i will be strong so no worries. haha!

i wan to forget everything and only tink of my PSP i'm going to get in a few hours time. it will be my new fren and soulmate.

2008-05-09T08:49:00.002+08:00

had a rough day yesterday...

i had counseling from a friend and what he told me shocked the shit outta me and i regretted my actions. however, it's always the case of being too late. park it.

but i really can't believe my ears. was what he said true? is he trying to coax me into saying sorry?

i dunnoe, i'm parking confused again. there's so many things i wanna let out. but i know i can't.

i must be strong and tell myself that it is afterall, just a dream that will forever stay a dream and will never come true for me.

2008-05-06T02:30:00.002+08:00

just realised i haven blogged in a few days so here it goes...

Sunday:

Went JB with Porky, Henry and Cai Ning. got off to a bad start when that couple quarreled and it took another couple who were married animally to ease off the ill feelings. which so happened to be a packet of Ciggies...

anyways, it wasn't as fun as the first time i went with Henry and Cai Ning. dun get me wrong here because i had lunch that tasted so bad and had such small servings that couldn't satisfy me. A Hungry man is an Angry man! ROAR!!! ahhhh. food just either make or break my day.

other then tat, the 3 of them went for a haircut while i didn't. went for some shopping but i didn't buy anything. then went for KTV cum Buffet which of course is my favorite. and had the privilege of hearing how marvelous Porky's voice is when she sang Jolin Tsai's songs. CN and i can't help but notice how similar Porky's voice and looks compared to the great Diva Jolin Tsai.

the only thing i wanted was a PSP along with a package of attractive accessories. it is priced at about S$300 plus but it is very very worth it. damn cheap!!! but i dun tink i'll get it cause of the 2 considerations in my mind. which is the KL trip and Porky's present.

Monday:

After Porky's pleas, decided to meet her after school to extend her validity of her passport with that cute little picture when she's just a little gal. haha! anyway, she decided to make a new one so we didn't have to spend about 1 hour plus Q-ing.

so we went to SIm Lim Square to look for Porky's Bday present which is a Lumix FX-36. after a couple of hours, the best price we got was $476. damn, although i said my budget for her Bday is $500 but i wished the camera can cost below $450. i so want my PSP. =[

park it. anyway, went to Vivo after that to get her Hello Kitty box and she spent money again lohs. Haiz Haiz. Porky, when will you ever stop buying BAGS!!!

well, took the same bus back with her but she had to leave me half-way due to family commitments. while i had to rush like a crazy dinosaur to my Aikido class and in the process, most prob spent like $10 on transportation. had to take a cab to the CC cause i was really damn late.

but Aikido class today was parking fun as the techniques learnt was so hilarious. well, only i know what happened. so fun.

Randoms:

sometimes i wonder is it me or is it just you? i tried to understand but i always seem to be misunderstood. i dunnoe how long it'll last but perhaps not. if only i could foretell what the future bring.

and the worse part, i'm always partaking in races in which i'll never finish 1st but always 2nd.

i hate my sad ass life...

2008-04-30T00:09:00.004+08:00

Had PastaMania with Amanda, Sin Hui and Jasmine today. Creamy Chicken Penne is my FAV! =]

Den went to Vivo sky garden to chill alone. listen to this song playing on your speakers now as well as some Chinese love songs. got kinda EMO and thought of some stuff. thankfully, a call from Anthony severed my thoughts from my tortured soul...

Took bus home with Anthony. he made the long trip seem short with his endless supply of funny, weird and amazing videos on his Ipod.

2R again tml. but then again, what's new for me? Sentosa should seriously consider me as their Merlion shift 2R specialist. heh. ;p

Porky, i miss you. meet up soon k? you seem so busy with school and work lately. =[ PLEASE TAKE CARE!!!

2008-04-29T00:56:00.002+08:00

Went for Aikido class after work today. had to leave early at 5p.m. however, i only made it in time to bathe and rest for a slight moment due to the traffic jams during peak hours.

Aikido class fun as i learned new moves today. "Kotegaeshi" which somewhat means hand lock or sth. not very sure. Sensei taught many variations but i only managed to catch about 3, which IMO is good enough for me at the moment. Kotegaeshi is often followed by a pin, in which the Uke aka "attacker" is faced down and arms pinned behind his back. Wee! FUN!

Porky and i seem to somehow dissolve our quarrels and we started talking again. =]

and i'm gonna work all the way till Saturday and my off day on Sunday will be used for a short trip to JB. mainly for me to go there to eat cheap but delicious food while Henry and CN do their stuff tat they wanted. Porky might come too. if her mum allow that is. haha! Auntie! dun worry, Dino here can protect ur daughter de! wahaha! i'm starting my nonsense again...

kk, working 2R in a few hours time. GTG slp already.

Till then, TATA!

and Porky forgot to say gd nite to me before she logged off MSN. Evil pig. Heh.

2008-04-25T14:11:00.003+08:00

Fuck, Lao Sai-ed again. Fucking hell. missed work becos of tat. -_-"

just wanna open up to you guys about some problems i had. well, i got paranoid lately and pissed someone off badly. some of you might noe who the person i'm refering to. and that person is no longer talking to me.

this made me very sad. adding misery to the confusion i had inside me for quite sometime...

i just wanna let that person noe that i'm truly sorry for what i did. and no sweet words here cos i noe it's not gonna work wonders. but in case that person forgets, there isn't much time left for me to play in this cold war. i hope to treasure the remaining time left...

well, i'm not gonna contact that person for the time being. all my other girlfriends suggested i give that person some space to cool off. well, i agree.

anyway, my sincere apologies to that person.

lastly, would like that person to noe that i still miss her crazily, love her as much as i love myself and will still continue to do anything to make her smile...

The song that describes my current feelings best...

How do i live without you (Trisha Yearwood)

How do i
Get through one night without you
If i had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh i need you in my arms
Need you to hold
Your my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you'd take away everything good in my life

And tell me now
How do i live without you
I want to know
How do i breathe without you
If you ever go
How do i ever, ever survive?
How do i
How do i
O how do i live?

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And i
Baby i don't know what i would do
I would be lost if i lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life

And tell me now
How do i live without you
I want to know
How do i breathe without you
If you ever go
How do i ever ever survive?
How do i
How do i
O how do i live?...

Please tell me baby..

How do i go on?
If you ever leave
Well baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know your everything good in my life

And tell me now
How do i live without you
I want to know
How do i breathe without you
If you ever go
How do i ever, ever survive?
How do i
How do i
O how do i live

How do i live without you
How do i live without you baby...
How do i live....

2008-04-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

just came back from my midnight jog. from today onwards, i'll try to go for a run everyday after work. if i do morning shift, i'll run after work. if evening shift den i'll run at midnight. OOSH!

and just look at this picture. what the hell is that!? let me tell you, it's a God damn rat! Merlion is infested by all kind of rodents. a few days back was bees. den today i see rats. arggh! disgusting. gonna call EC tml and scream at them. haha!

2008-04-23T09:28:00.002+08:00

CoNfUsIoN

i'm getting confused again. this feelings sucks. i fucking hate it.

am i tinking too much again or is it her attitude tat was responsible this time. i seriously dunnoe. wanted to reply a "whatever" but i dun really want to escalate the whole matter.

fucking hell, i'm going to be late for work. heck, fucking no mood.

FUCK IT LAHS! *screams!*

2008-04-20T20:52:00.002+08:00

ok, i know you guys missed me. so i'm back.

i'm sorry tat...

1) no blog entries for my 21st Bday and my Bangkok trip.
2) i tink i've lost interest in blogging already.

haha! anyway, i wun completely abandon this blog lahs. it still holds many memories for me...

anyway, just wanna talk about some random stuff...

1) WORK

due to some re-shufflement of staff by the Manager, it has caused many to be upset and thus, 3 have immediately resigned. 1 which i've known quite well. i tink it's kinda rash of them to do such a thing. but i guess this is life and we all must live by the decisions we make.

and this 3 resignations will in fact affect me in my work. which i will not elaborate as the person intended might see it and thus cause complication.

2) PORKY

yes, this section is all about her. i really hate to say this but i'm so addicted to her. to the point tat i kept SMSing her to meet up despite PORKY being busy with school and work and putting our pictures on my phone screensaver and wallpaper. i'm going GAGA over her. haha!

but i hope that time will keep still so tat i'll just a little more time to spend with her. a little more time to tell her she's wonderful in various ways. a little time to crack more jokes so tat her mouth will bend in a postive manner called a SMILE.

hopefully time will stand still cause i dread the day i'll really have to leave her becos of...

*look below*

3) National Service

arggh, NS sucks. i'm gonna spend 2 years in the jungles. and thus missing out on all the fun with frens, family and PORKY.

but it's also said that it'll make me into a MAN!

so mixed feelings for me...

4) Aikido

hehe. guess wat? i'm learning Aikido. a Japanese Self-Defense martial arts. will be having my 2nd lesson tml. EXCITED!!! =]

Till next time, see ya!

2008-04-09T02:34:00.002+08:00

Coldness

you might ask why am i behaving so cold and irritated towards you?

reason being?

simple!

cos you're no longer the person i thought i know. and to be simply honest, i'm sick of you right now...

2008-04-08T02:28:00.002+08:00

Times in Bangkok

On the flight Tr108 we flew,
to the land of the thousand smiles.
The times i had, the experiences i held in my heart and memory,
i will not forget.
It'll be fatal to reveal my feeling,
so i hold on to them feelings.
Smiling deeply to myself,
when i look back fondly on those memories.
On the flight TR109 we flew,
back to the sunny island i call home.
Where everything started,
where everything ended too...

n yeah, if i have time and the urge to blog abt my trip, i might blog abt it. anyway, pics going up on my Friendster and Facebook account real soon so keep a look out! =]

2008-03-29T03:00:00.002+08:00

damn... look at the time now

to be real honest here, i can't slp. i got alot of things on my mind tat's causing to toss and turn in bed.

it's 3a.m and i'm supposed to wake up at 6a.m for work. i just bloody cannot slp.n i guess it'll just be another rough day at work.

well, i guess i'll just go ad play games till it's time to be ready for work.

fucking hell...

2008-03-28T01:19:00.002+08:00

i need to vent all my frustrations, a little of anger and confusion n i'll just do it here. if u dun understand a damn thing. just shut up n read. dun ask a damn thing.

i rarely get angry but this happens to be a rare time. pls bear wif me.

yeah, u'll ask y? damn, i wish someone can answer tat for me.

* sometimes i really feel if i'm really too nice. ppl tend to step all over me or take me for granted. sometimes i feel tat all my hardwork is not being recognized be it at work or personal life. i just wanna be a nice guy, make my frens happy so tat in turn, i'll be happy too.

y is tat so bloody hard? tell me?

y is it tat someone whom i trust, treasure and at one point in my life tat i loved cannot understand and trust me? y can't the person understand the pains i had to go thru to make things work out? y can't the person just give me a little trust that i'll get the matter settled? y keep saying "my fren this my fren tat"? i'm not saying ur fren is wrong for goddamn sake but at least jus show me some trust can?

i had a rather gd few days lately and i dun wish for my happy times to be ruined like tat. i'm still the happy guy who u can talk to and have fun with. but my strength has a limit and i really wan to scream and shout to vent all this crap outta my heart but it's 1.30 a.m already. so i can't do tat.

i'm just so fucking tired trying to be superman everyday. i feel like crying cos it's really goddamn frustrating becos i just wan everything i do to have a pleasant ending but somehow it just keep falling apart...

Disclaimer: i'm not referring to any specific person and all this crap u've just read was all my ranting. thank you for your patience and understanding for reading thru this shit.

ONCE again, thank you all.

2008-03-17T02:13:00.002+08:00

they asked me: "Wat present do you want for your 21st birthday?"

well, i jokingly said i wanted a gal. although most replies by me were made for fun. deep down i actually meant it.

a gal who's simple in mind and in the heart. someone whom i can share all my life and secrets with. someone who i can always show my ugliest side to and she'll do the same too. someone who can make me smile by just looking at her SMS, by just looking at her and just simply the thought of her.

and now i'll just take the easy way out, that is to walk the distance alone.

oh a brighter side, Zi Lin just told me a gal actually complimented that i'm actually quite handsome lehs! wahahaha! too bad she can't rmb who that gal was. it was...

SHOCKING...

2008-03-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

something comical happened to me today at work. yes, my lunch was stolen! it just spoils my day. wat a load of bullshit!

this is wat i wrote to that asshole who took my lunch. pls click to enlarge to read.

and yesterday a snake came to Merlion. unfortunately, Gautha killed the snake. just look at the blood! click and enlarge the picture! gross!

2008-03-02T23:45:00.003+08:00

FINALLY!!!

i was able to meet Porky for a drive out for dinner! went to Bukit Timah area to eat after my work.

PICTURES!

Jus look at e delicious and mouth-watering food!

Heh! Porky's driving skills not bad lehs. but need some improvements ar! and look at e 3rd pic. she got ghostly hand! ARGGH!!! *Runs away*

2008-03-02T02:47:00.002+08:00

jus wanna blog awhile b4 i sleep.

2 weeks back, Alvin and my IC Richard talked to me abt getting a contract from Sentosa. but i decided not to take up e offer. cos i called CMPB to ask e date of my enlistment and they couldn't give me e answer. so i guess i'll take e wise road and jus continue working part time. i dun wanna risk any complications.

n yeah, i'll be going to Bangkok again during 2-7 April. e preparations were a little tough but i'll work hard so that i can make my dear Porky feel like a princess there. oh yes, did i forget to tell u Porky is coming along too? hell yeah! n probably our first n last trip together in a positive way... i hope i dun sound like i'm cursing.

my bball court was torn down a couple of weeks ago. kinda sad as memories of me working my game flowed through my mind. well, we'll most prob relocated to Zhenghua CC to play. or i could always head down to Bukit Panjang CC to play myself, shoot some hoops. and i'm starting to love swimming again. jus tat exams r coming n i dun really have time for tat.

there's a new gal at work called Yong Yong. we all call her Ah Yong. it's my 2nd day seeing her n we had a little chat. she's damn cute man! haha! enjoyed talking to her. oh yeah, she taught me a little ballet too! now i noe y she's always tip toeing. but she's learning Modern Dance i tink. yeah.

~RaNdOmS oF mA LiFe

2008-02-15T22:40:00.002+08:00

belated Valentine's wif who else but dear Porky!

this is wat i had initially planned:

1) bring her to Merlion to take photos which she really wanted
2) Lunch at Tourism Academy Restaurant, 3 course set and a little surprise, a red rose
3) Play e Luge

but my reservation came a bit short so e whole plan fell apart. but anyways, our day in photos...

Went to look ard the Sentosa Flowers since it was e 3rd last day...

Porky said i looked very nice in this candid picture wors... haha!

Haha! den we went up to the Merlion to take some photos. den we headed to the Luge to play!

Us in our helmets. we took like 5 pics n we banged our helmet everytime. jus imagine... LoL!

Us taking the Skyride. Porky was scared half e time. haha! but e view was great.

Den off we went to Sakae for Lunch! my treat! little did i noe Porky had a surprise for me! =)

"what the hell is this?"

"Wahaha! Barney!"

from Porky wif loads of animal love...

am i happy wif e gift? u bet i am!

Porky herself liked e soft toy n took it to play herself too!

e photos we got from Merlion n Sentosa Flowers. they're free btw. Wahaha!

and the BEST PICTURE OF THE DAY belongs to...

PORKY!!! dun stare too hard if not u'll get a nightmare!

more photos at my Facebook Album

2008-02-12T22:06:00.000+08:00

well, watched this wif my dear porky yesterday...

well, it was a average movie to me. as e storyline was normal and e visual effect was too "over". but Jay my idol was jus so cool. plus all e basketball action tat equals to COOL! wahaha!

some pictures of us. missed my porky badly. well, i'm taking her out for lunch on Fri. belated valentine's day! it'll be our last b4 i get enlisted into NS. porky dun cry ar! haha! i'm going to be a MAN!

Others: well, lately i've been feeling rather pissed off wif this bitch. all i wanna say is...

"Time to grow up, ur so called 'innocence' wun last forever."

2008-01-21T00:46:00.000+08:00

come to tink of it, i haven been posting much have i?

hmmm. well, sorry abt tat. jus tat life has been rather boring. nth much to talk abt. have i lost my interest for blogging? i might. but i dun tink i'll give it up though. this santuary of mine still holds some nice memories...

well, got my pay which is abt $500. got a couple of stuff in mind to buy.

1) a pair of dumb bells. (abt $80 each at mustafa)
2) a new phone, i dun mind if it's 2nd hand. (either N70 or N73)
3) new pair of glasses. (abt $70 - $100?)
4) new year clothes. (abt $100?)
5) haircut. ($12)

see, jus take a look. it seems that $500 not enuff lohs. haha!

well, wat else? hmmm. i miss clubbing sia. although i tink i forget how to dance already. haha!

maybe i'll save up for a holiday soon. my ITE education will end mid March n maybe i'll have a holiday in May.

n yeah, i need women in my life. come to me my darlings! wahaha! ;p

2007-12-14T00:53:00.000+08:00

Ok, today was last day at sch. was bored throughout the afternoon despite watching Bleach, playing DOTA, more anime and chatting with dear Porky.

so...

decided to go n find the island peeps! but before tat, went to get some stuff first.

1) Irregularly shaped plasters for Patrice's poor legs.
2) Shirts to go with my Black Topman jeans.

so i jus put on a shirt, wore my black jeans and also my brown VANS shoe. styled my hair. oh yes, did i forget to say i've got a nice regular hairstyle now. haha! so happy. Step 1 of Project Makeover: COMPLETED!

went to Zara, Topshop, River Island, Spade, Fleshbox and Samuel & Kevin to look for shirts. n guess where i got them at? S&K lohs. i like a buttoned shirt but there're 2 nice colours. RED n Light Green! so guess wat, i bought them both. it was originally $35 but they had christmas sale so it's only $28 per piece. quite cheap lahs.

then went into the island to find Zi Lin n Co. The ICs and Duty Sups were having some award ceremony thingie and came back all glammed up! n yeah, got ppl say i look like MAD aka Malay Ah Bengs or watever u spell "MAD". so sad... but it's a new style for me. haha!

kinda sad to hear DS Karen being transferred over to the Admission side. but to look on the bright side, i believe she'll whack some discipline into those ppl. haha!

n last but definitely not e least, happy birthday to Zi Lin fat fat! =)

2007-12-08T08:56:00.000+08:00

now at Imbiah Bunkers. TON-ed last nite at Sentosa's Cafe Del'mar with Stacy, Firdaus, Halim, Karen booby, Amir, Euguene and Patrice. (arggh)

it was sort of disappointing. i jus lost all my interest at e very moment i heard tat she's coming. well, to ans her's and many of those who asked...

"Sing Dai, y never go talk to her?"

my ans was simple...

"i got nth to say to her."

but i feel stupid when i looked frantically when she wasn't ard. and when i did noe she left, i wasn't feeling happy but kinda confused. JUS WAT THE FUCK AM I TINKING OF?

well, i guess it will jus take a period of time for adjustments i guess...

2007-12-02T00:52:00.000+08:00

BLOODY HELL! I HAD ENUFF!

I NO LONGER WAN TO TAKE PART IN THE RACE WHEN IT SEEMS THAT WHEN IT'S JUS ME N THE FINISH LINE, SOMEONE WILL ALWAYS OVERTAKE ME.

I'M SICK N TIRED OF LOSING ALL THE TIME. I'M SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED N FUCKING PISSED.

I HATE IT WHEN :

1) U ONLY COME TO ME WHEN U NEED HELP
2) I ALWAYS SEEMED TO BE LAST ON THE LIST

I GOT MORE TO SAY BUT I'M JUS SO TIRED AFTER ANOTHER DAY AT WORK W/O SLP FROM THE PREVIOUS DAY. SO JUS FUCK IT. I DUN GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE!

FO!

2007-11-29T23:23:00.000+08:00

went sim lim today to buy some stuff:

1) USB Hub
2) Sony Ear Phone

went to my fren's shop n he's so kind to give me a discount. wee! waited for him to knock off and he gave me a life hm.

i also wanted to get a Bluetooth adapter but my fren said he had a spare at hm. so he decided to give me for free when he finds it tat is...

well, spent e whole of today tinking of "the lie". n i'm kinda glad i come to a decision on wat to do abt it. i dunnoe wat will happen in e future but all i wan is to be happy. simple.

2007-11-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

today while waiting at e bus stop, my MP3 ear phone got spoiled... i suddenly got sad as it was sth tat my ex GF gave me. it was e ear phone for her new MP3 abt 2 yrs back. but she gave it to me cos her older ear phone was still usable. my heart did hurt a little. watever...

well, had PR CA today. it was EASY!!! wahaha! i was laughing all e way when i read e Qs for e 1st time and when i finished e paper in 15 mins.

then i went to JB with my fren who wanted to make some repairs to his car. unfortunately, e shop closed on him. so we went to eat and it was a lavish meal indeed! wahaha! damn tasty lahs! =)

2007-11-13T00:34:00.000+08:00

hmmm. kinda glad tat e misunderstanding between me n porky cleared up...

on the other hand, i wonder y my heart yearns for u? i've been missing u all day. but tml onwards, i'll make myself numb cos i noe if i continue to do all this, i'll plunge into the abyss of darkness again.

for all the happiness i got, i must fight to forget this tingling feeling inside me.

but how is it possible when i got to hold ur warm hand tat very night?

i must... i must forget...

2007-11-12T00:39:00.000+08:00

everyday, i'll feel so hot after work. i guess i've been pushing myself too hard. but no choice, i need e money. my body lately hasn't been in gd condition. Sore thoart, stomach aches and aching legs. no matter wat, i'll always give myself a pat on e back for a job well done everyday. heh!

for the past 2 days, have been training this new staff Valerie. she's 17, short and kinda cute. she picks things up fast and tat makes a sick guy's job much easier. haha! but she always seem to speak too fast! must make her work on tat. hopefully she'll turn out to be a gd staff so tat e ICs and Duty Sups will give me more "trainer" positions and tat EQUALS to $7 per hour! YEAHS! haha!

sometimes i wonder y i bother to get jealous. we're worlds apart and u jus dun like me. y do i bother so much? i noe i care abt u but i really wan to stop cos IT'S GETTING NOWHERE! i seriously wan to stop wasting my time. i shld really stop bothering myself becos of this crap.

i got more to say but u might jus read it. so i'll jus shut up. i'll keep everything in my heart n suffer alone...

2007-11-08T23:52:00.000+08:00

i did it, i managed to survive a day a work without slp. man am i strong or wat? haha! seriously, no slp. but wld u consider a 45 min nap as slp? n on a bus too? haha!

anyway, work was relaxing today. n yet it was a PH! n guess wat, i was paid $9.40 per hr. wahaha! wee! wee! wee! really can't believe my ears. well, not gonna say so much.

n wat's this feeling in me tat i once though it was gone. i hope it stays away. cos i'm very much happy wif how my life is now. seriously i dun need tat feeling anymore. dun come back. it sucks. it only bring bursts of happiness but eternal sadness.

but's it's hard when u're ard. so i better disappear. make me david copperfield then. but without the sex pls...

hehe!

2007-11-08T06:09:00.000+08:00

went to St James for Patrice's bday and it was a blast. her 18th bday lehs! haha! grow up already. pls show ur habit of showing ur middle finger ar! ;p

anyway, accompanied her to do her pre-party routines and it costed me abt 30 plus dollars. OUCH! haha! but nvm lahs. made my already upset stomach more upset but jus for her i bear it all. cos unlike my 18th bday, i wanted her's to be wonderful. got her a hand purse. nth significant really.

then onto e party at St James. Her big bro got us VIP seats. Kudos to him. which saved me at least $20. then as for e party, it was jus fun, nth else. will be posting up pictures once i get them from Zi Lin n Stacy. i had some great shots there. haha!

well, she kinda forgot to say bye to me but i guess it's ok...

anyway, now damn broke already. spent a total of abt $50. which makes my financial plans more difficult. but as stacy said, Bdays only come once a year. oh well, anything goes...

gtg, have to get ready for work soon. i'll be so so dead.

once again... happy bday!

2007-11-05T00:43:00.000+08:00

sorry for e lack of recent post. it's jus tat there's nth special to post lately. Sch, Work and erms... and u see, really nth rite? haha!

went to Malaysia jus now with my frens. went there to eat n cut my very very very long hair. haha! food there is delicious n cheap. clothes n shoes too! but i didn't buy any so to speak. totally in love with my new hair.

anyway e main point is tat i wanna talk abt a video i saw on Youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KB_GoQ-h9Zg

read e "abt this video" n u'll noe e whole story. those cheeky bastards got e damn cheek to show their faces n mock at e poor uncle. damn INHUMAN! Fucking hell.

it's e first time tat i tear watching anything on videos. i dun feel sad when i watch sad movies n such but such inhuman acts r really too much. these ang mohs shld really jus fuck off n DIE.

ok, i admit tat not all ang mohs r bad like those ppl (i mean bastards) in the video.

anyway, do catch e interview on tat poor uncle who was in the video. there 2 parts which i'll provide e links. u'll noe how hard it is for ppl like him in his industry.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4QPc5I3YUEo&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WKs6QhXss2g

interview 1 n 2 respectively.

so ppl, pls ar! can rob, steal or watever shit. but pls dun target e elderly. if we young ppl get targeted still ok, we have have at least $1200 per month job to survive u noe. but jus look at the elderly working in our society now! they're earning peanuts!

so pls ar, ah bengs, desperate ppl and ppl who have nth else better to do. dun do this kind of things ar! pls ar. use ur bloody stupid brain n tink for a second will ya!?

2007-10-25T00:22:00.000+08:00

well well, had photo taking at sch today. it was FUN! =)

finally saw Snow White after a week of not seeing her. although it was only her backview i saw, it was sufficient. more than sufficient. yeah, i'm easily satisfied.

<--("v")--<<

so it really tat weird if i'm going to ride a bike? maybe i dun haf e "cool" look rite? haha! well, i tink i'm going for it. jus getting a license only wat...

2007-10-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

my teacher once said to my class during Public Relations class:

" in ur future working life, be either outstanding or be a absolute loser/ruthless. it's becos being ordinary or average will not get u anywhere. "

it made ponder abt my work this few days. well, to be honest, i used to tink i was e best at work. becos i'm sort of being like the "being there, done tat" type of employee. be it getting compliments from guest, being a stand-in IC, doing Guided Tours or even doing Service Host. i've done all tat n i tink tat there's hardly anything left for me to accomplish...

so i thought of qutting my job n getting a new one as e current one does not seem to provide tat "kick" anymore. another reason could be tat i'm getting complacent. well, tat's a maybe. and perharps i'm jus lazy to run ard either as SH or doing GTs.

i was tinking tat i'm right until my teacher told me e abv quote from himself. it made me stop n tink.

" so wat if i'm e best or used to be e best? "
" is stepping back n let others shine right? "

seriously, i dunnoe. i'm really not saying i'm so DAMN gd but i'm certainly not e worse. neither am i trying to be show tat i'm conceited.

i jus find tat i no longer have any goals in my life!

where did all my goals, my wants and my desires go?

like how i used to desire a gf, wanted to be e best soccer/bball player in my sch and how i wanted this n tat...

where did it all go?

well, tat aside. i tink i'm going to apply for bike license. reasons being tat i'll most prob need a cheaper form of transport when i graduate and finish NS. no more student rate already ok! haha!

so wat do u tink? shld i or shld i not take bike lessons? leave me a tag alrighty? thks.

2007-10-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

ok, i'm guilty of not blogging lately. so i'm gonna jus post some updates...

well, come back from Thailand with loads of clothes. stuff there is really cheap lahs. even when we were cheated when buying boxers, it was still much cheaper then wat it costs in s'pore. haha!

pics u ask? well, they're at my facebook acnt. my dear frens can add me at tsd87@hotmail.com. and e link for e thai pics r at http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=27076&id=635561392

got my last semester's result n i must say i'm surprised. didn't study much n i managed to get 2 Bs and 1 A. n tat A happens to be POM. haha! wat a surprise! but then again, regrets as i wasted 1 yr away lohs. ha! watever...

as for sch, it jus started n it seems ok. e teachers seemed to be able to teach and e subjects not tat difficult. so hopefully i'll end off my ITE life with all As for e last semester. haha!

till next time, ta! ta!

2007-10-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

now now! in jus a few hrs time at tml's morning, i'll be flying off to bangkok thailand!

wee!

jus wanna say i'll miss my love ones and my dear frens. ppl like Zi Lin, Amir, Porky and... suddenly i realised i dun haf much frens. haha!

hmmm. going to haf a headache wat gifts to buy for my frens. i budget u noe? haha!

alrighty! almost time to go prepare n meet up wif my frens. so jus stay tune in 8 days time when i return hm with tales and pictures from the land of a thousand smiles!

i miss you...

2007-09-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

well, this is how i spent my precious off day...

- slping
- chatting with dear porky =) ---> highlight of e day LoL
- play games all day long
- eat

how... meaningless isn't it? haha!

but now for e superhighlight* of e day!

Snow White added me on friendster! haha! ok, u most probably will say it's dumb but i dun gif a damn. wee! hopefully i will have the guts to maybe add her back in MSN?

drats, my guts will be my downfall someday.

* it's SUPER cos it happened 5 mins ago, tat's all.

2007-09-19T20:33:00.001+08:00

it's been sometime since my last entry...

well, i'm back!

anyway, i tink lately i've been in some sort of depression. maybe it's work tat's tiring me. i dunnoe to be honest. i love my job but somehow it's making me EMO.

here is some of my shoutouts to some people:

Porky: hey, u're missed. my lovely animal wife. haha! hopefully we meet up soon.

Zi Lin Fat Fat: hey, if u're reading this, i hope watever has been troubling is no longer a problem ok? pls take care ar!

Snow White: ok, i never talk to her b4 but i jus wanna say i miss u!

2007-09-10T15:40:00.000+08:00

the movivation, the determination

well, jus had POM paper in e morning. although i didn't prepare well for e paper, deep down i'm confident.

Why?

becos e paper was damn easy. saying tat, i had regrets too. how i wished i was well-prepared. haha! so i'll most prob get a 'B' but if i'm lucky an 'A' perharps! =)

1 down, 2 to go! go!

2007-09-05T20:27:00.000+08:00

Porky had a bad day yesterday so me, for always being the nice guy agreed to watch Ratatouille with her after her attachment at work.

omg, e show was so funny lahs. porky n i enjoyed ourselves, laughing like grown up kids. haha! n hopefully it made her her troubles go away.

exams are coming n i'm not very confident. finding it hard to concentrate. will it be another all Bs semester? hopefully not i tink.

drats, i miss snow white...

2007-08-30T18:24:00.000+08:00

12 more days to exams!

it seems tat God wanted make up for the disappointment i had yesterday. which is the last BFS lesson. so guess who i met?

haha! u're right. it's Snow White!

unlike how i always happen to open my eyes from my nap on the bus and see her, today so somewhat different. when i alighted from the bus, she was already standing there at e bus stop.

did God wanted me to take e initiative to talk to her, i wonder? but sadly, it wasn't.

i looked at her, struggling to go ahead and say "hi!". but before i knew it, her fren came and "snatched" her away. devastated, i jus quickly walked pass her and into sch.

i'm such a loser. y can't i jus be a man and go talk to her? Javien and Shirely must be mocking me behind my back. haha!

i dunnoe how am i going to cope for the next 10 days. i won't be able to see her as no one goes back to sch next week. i jus feel so terrible! =(

oh ya, i so dig this song playing rite now. it's called "xiao qing ge". dunnoe sang by who lehs. do u noe? let me noe can? pls pls? haha!

* Sweet Dreams *

SD: hi, u're "xxx xxxx" (Snow White's name) rite?
Snow White: yup, and u're the guy tat was mentioned by Javien?
SD: ya, haha! u noe, actually i...
Snow White: ???
SD: i... eh. i jus want to let u noe tat i...
Snow White: yeah?
SD: well, i... i kinda lik...
*feels a kick in my butt and wakes up*
Mum: OEI! time to wake up and go to sch!
SD: arggh...

Sigh! even in my dreams i can't express my feelings...

2007-08-29T18:14:00.000+08:00

time to update! =)

drats, jus had my haircut n i'm not loving it! cos my favourite barber closed early n i wanted to cut my long n disgusting hair real bad. so i went to dunnoe wat "express haircut" at BP plaza n e result? it's horrendous! oh well, jus have to wait to it to get long and get back to my fav barber! *sighs*

thanks to some ppl in my class, Snow White* now knows tat i like her. drats drats! they even said it was a GOOD thing! arggh! now i can't even look at her from afar! =(

yes, it's true i want to get to know her better! maybe be her soulmate one day. but sometimes, something beautiful should be left untainted... anyway, i dun have much chances to see her anymore. afterall, today was the last Banking (BFS) class! =(

damn! y am i jus so shy?

arggh! gotta find the motivation to study! exams are coming!

*Snow White
- who is a mega fan of Sun Yan Zhi
- who loves the colour yellow, white, blue, pink & black
- who loves swimming & badminton but can't do them well
- who loves arts, drawing and singing
- who proclaim herself as ordinary and not special
- who study in the same elective class as me

Last but the least...

SHE who made my heart flutter everytime i open my eyes...

2007-08-24T15:00:00.000+08:00

now at fren's hse using his com while he... repair and upgrade my com. so after all this repairing and upgrades, i spent a total of abt $300...

this is wat i got:

- free installation of ORIGINAL Windows software
- free installation of other essential softwares recommended by my frens
- a new motherboard
- a new power supply unit
- 2 X 512 mb ram = 1.0 GB ram @ only $100
- no service charges

haha! so happy. my frens all so nice. help me wif my com tat seemed like it shld be dead. now it's full of life and stronger then ever.

i hope u have a good impression of me cos i really jus wan to get to know u better... sometimes beautiful things r jus meant to be admired from afar...

2007-08-19T10:53:00.000+08:00

the tribute...

one of my supervisors left Sentosa yesterday. it was her last day. we surprised her after "Songs of the Sea" 2nd show and she was in tears. actually, i jus join in the surprise. she was very touched by all of us. but sadly, her biggest "present" from all of us was to be thrown into the sea. wat a wicked way to send her off! ;p

Duty Supervisor Rahidah was once a IC at "Images of Singapore". she was the winner of some STB award tat i dunnoe and was soon promoted to a Duty Supervisor. though i dunnoe her very well, i could see tat she was dilligent, patient, kind and thoughtful.

As Duty Supervisor, she was very approachable. she always wear tat beautiful smile of her whenever i see her.

i jus wanna thank her for her kindness and guidance over the years.
she will be remembered fondly by us.
and i wish her all the best in her future endeavours.

"'thank you' is never enough"

2007-08-18T11:49:00.000+08:00

to make it official, my com is dead...

drats! tat means no more anime (bleach & Naruto), no porn (LoL!), no computer games and no MSN with Porky. =( =( =(

i'll most likely have to save abt $800-$1000 for a new CPU. so sad, i might haf to forgo my thailand trip. =( =( =(

to porky's blog post on August 14:

i'm drifting away? haha! u tink too much lahs! haha! e only thing i'll be drifting is the car i'm driving when i'm playing Initial D. i noe we hardly talk nowadays but i guess we're both busy at e moment. and the biggest cause, MY STUPID COM!

haha! n dino dun wan to disturb u when u're having sweet times with "u noe who". LoL! however, u may still beep me shld u require any dino love advice. it'll cost u 1 porky dollar for every advice. haha!

2007-08-14T19:49:00.000+08:00

jus watched Jay Chou's movie "secret". not in cinemas but on the net, thks to porky who provided me the link.

however, tat's not e main point. the movie brings back memories...

it's a movie abt love, music and the piano. sounds all too familiar. yeah, i rmb those times...

the times when we first met and fell in love...
the first time when we kissed and hold hands...
the times when i had to support u from behind when u wanted to give up from your grade 8 piano practical exam...
the time when i shared ur joys and sorrows when u were 7 marks(if i'm not wrong) away from distinction grade...

yeah, i still rmb after such a long time...

the movie's ending was a good one. jay managed to make it back to the past and was reunited with his gal.

how i wish i could play the piano too. i would go back to the past and change everything...

i wish...

Gal: among all the gals u loved, where do i rank?
Guy: u have no placing on the rankings at all!
Gal: WAT!?
Guy: it's becos u're not number one.
Gal: ???
Guy: u're the ONLY one...

2007-08-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

i jus feel so down....

i'm so envious of porky. her dream guy finally asked her for her number and msn. so happy for her lohs. it's not like always gd things can come so smoothly. hopefully, all things goes well for her... =)

so sad, maybe she's giving me false hope. waited 1 hr plus for her to reply my sms. but she didn't. it's not her fault but at least she can tell me she's busy or sth. arggh. jus not in a gd mood now...

i really wan to noe u better. i really do...

2007-08-03T00:48:00.000+08:00

been watching Naruto lately. Naruto, like few other characters in e story faced solitude, loneliness and pain. some became stronger becos of it, some was consumed by evil becos of it...

solitude... scary isn't it?

yeah, i've been feeling it for sometime again. it sucks. haven had this feeling for sometime now. wth is wrong...

is it wrong to wish for me to wish for someone to hold and call my very own?

y does love bother me so much? i have my family, great frens, great teachers past n present and great colleagues. by right, i shld be having a gd life.

even those frens tat i once loved, 2 became my best fren. wat more shld i ask for?

but love does indeed leave a scar. it reminds u of pain of a broken heart, loneliness. it does...

dun get me wrong, i've managed to put e past well behind. but i jus feel so lonely...

behind tat face tat u seen smiling. be it at sch or at work. the full of nonsence guy at class or the super know-it-all guy at the Merlion (self-proclaimed btw). u guys whom r close to me shld now tat's jus a mask i wear everyday...

Ha! so dumb of me. wasting my time. watching Naruto lately has weaken my mind but at e same time strengthen it. seeing how he overcome mounting problems and becoming strong motivated me.

but sad to say, i ain't tat strong. i fall to solitude, to loneliness...

2007-07-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

Sunday:

Work today was satisfying but yet disappointing...

well, today's operations was rather smooth. and i was asked by Amir to do e monthly report today. luckily i got e previous month's report. cos i edited the format and thus i can do it faster. n it was indeed faster. i finish e report in like one day lohs. to be exact, a few hours. very happy!

but...

jus after e finish of e report, i went out n resume service. little did i noe wat's in stored for me. i was fucked by the tour guide for something which wasn't my fault sia. spoilt my day lohs. she happens to be one of e guides who were on very friendly terms wif me. arggh! jus a good n bad day.

to e guys i made my promise:

i tried but i jus can't do it. i wanted to say "hi" in the morning but she turned away. wat can i do? i talked to her abt work and she replied in a cold tone. only when she needed help, then her tone improved. so now, wat do u wan me to do. i tired to do wat u guys wan willingly but sad to say e response isn't there...

so forget it, no more such rubbish anymore...

2007-07-29T00:33:00.000+08:00

this is my "2 in 1" blog entry. LoL!

Friday:

hehe! went out wif porky to do sth. but due to some problems, i tink i better not say wat we do. but we didn't do anything stupid lahs. i also dunnoe how to explain. haha!

some pics...

met up wif porky and from the smile from our face. u noe it's a great day ahead! =)

hmmm, i dunnoe wat e hell porky is trying to do by taking candid pics of me looking away...

Wahaha! the soya bean milk i'm holding is a present form porky cos i "helped" her. or tat's how she said it was... hehe!

haha! porky was offering her nice bean curd to me but i was like "WAT! I'M SUPPOSED TO EAT SOMETHING TAT A PIG ATE!?" LoL! ;p

but as u see, the bean curd was nice lahs. i was enjoying so much tat i didn't notice porky taking my picture like after 2, 3 times. Ha!

oh ya, before i forget to say this... PORKY, I SO LOVE UR NEW BLACK HAIR! feels jus like back in our old secondary school days! =)

Saturday:

well, work was fun but tiring. there're lots of Ups and Downs.

Ups:

- getting to check our some pretty gals from other countries. Japanese and Koreans in general. birthday wish for next year, "may i have a kawaii Japanese as my gf?" haha!
- erms, a certain someone from a certain retail shop in Sentosa got my hp number from me. while, i tink she's kinda cute. but oh well, God shall decided...

Downs:
- a tour guide tried to play cheat wif me. NO NO! not in my house!
- the endless crowds
- my sore feet
- tat gal didn't msg me after getting my number. =( =( =(

yeah, i promised Zi Lin and Amir tat i'll be nice to someone. but i'll make it real clear, i'll only do tat if she's nice first.

2007-07-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

YAYS! GOT MY NEW MONITOR!

it's a LG 19 inch wide screen LCD monitor @ only $299. i tink it's quite a bargain lahs. cos e rest cost like $300 plus onwards. plus i got a 2GB thumbdrive at $33.90. NOT A BARGAIN COS I COULD HAF GOTTEN E SAME ONE AT $30! =(

with tat, i can finally chiong finish my projects! WAHAHA! =)

love working at Merlion, Sentosa. jus love it.

you shouting "Green Tea" at me wasn't cute. and your presence certainly did not brighten things up. tat's why i ignored you. if you forgived me, i'll thank you for it. but as far as things go, it'll stay this way. nothing will change. i'm sorry, this is how i will behave to make myself feel NOTHING for you. i'm sorry, it has to be done.

it's because i've fallen in love with the wrong person...

2007-07-22T02:00:00.000+08:00

OMG

didn't blog for like sometime. was sick for abt a week lohs. arggh. FEVER @ 39 degrees. after recovering from tat, got flu, stomach ache and rashes on my neck!

anyway, i'm blogging from e lan shop near my hse. my COM Monitor broke down. arggh! i wonder how i'm going to do project work! =(

oh ya, harry potter, order of e phoenix was nice. rumors of e last book said tat harry's gonna die? haha! i wonder how...

kk. gtg.

top of my wishlist, a new LCD Monitor! =(

2007-07-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

studied at MOS Burger at BP Plaza jus now. then met up wif Porky. gave her the "surprise" which i told her abt. her reaction is totally wat i expected cos it was really cute! it's acutally a hand puppet in a form of a pig. haha! then porky start her nonsense already. using the puppet to bite me! Ouch Ouch! =)

then on e way hm, 2 china gals freaked me out man! i was walking behind them, then one of the gals pulled her aside. i was like "huh? for wat sia?". anyway, i walked past them and continued at normal pace. then e weird thing started. they suddenly increased their speed n walk past me. i didn't really take note and jus kept on walking. due to e fact tat i got long legs, i overtook them again. then guess wat, they overtook me again! i was like "WTF ladies!". then once again, due to my long legs n at normal pace, i overtook them once again. and this time, i increased my speed n walked off. WTH man, weird ppl.

omg, also wanna talk abt bleach. got bored this few days and decided to watch Bleach Manga on Youtube. OMFG, it was exciting! Aizen ordered 4 Espadas to distract the Death Gods and kidnapped Inoue! apparently her powers attracted Aizen! when tat happened, Ichigo decided to go Heco Mundo to rescue her. then Chad and Ishida joined him. omg, both of them leveled up man! chad got a powerful shield on his right hand while his powers evolved his left arm into "diablo", a offence-based arm. "diablo" stopped a ex-Espada's Cero with relative ease! but he soon got beaten down by the No.1 Espada. Ishida on e other hand, regained his powers and got a brand new powerful bow tat can shoot 1200 times at max! later on, he "borrowed" a sword from his father. it's powerful lahs.

ok, u must be tinking i'm crapping but for all bleach fans out there, u'll noe e story soon when e anime shows. plus there're so much more tat i didn't say. omg! it's jus so exciting!!! can't wait for e anime to be released!

kk, back to my notes!

2007-07-10T22:51:00.000+08:00

no complaints, no self-praise, no whining, no...

today, i jus wanna reflect on some of the things i've done in my 20 yrs of life. some gd, some bad... jus some thoughts of wat might be...

i wonder if i've studied hard during my sec sch days, where wld i be now? perhaps in poly? or maybe even JC. ha! now i've to plan for my future wif my mum in mind. 2 freaking yrs in e army is not gonna help much.

i wonder if i've not given up my basketball for Joyce, where wld i be now? i've seen some of my frens step up to e senior team at Eng Tat Hornets. if i didn't gif it all up, maybe i wld haf been able to play. wat a pity...

i wonder if i had been more mature and better at controlling my temper, wld Joyce and i be still together? but then again, her little affair wif Jefferson was a tad too much... i was proven right countless times... oh well...

i wonder if i haven spent close to $1000 on arcade games in e past, wld i haf been able to go for a make over and become a hunk? haha! kidding lahs. but if tat money haf been used for other things in my life, wat wld haf been e effect on me? maybe i cld haf gone overseas for holidays more often? hmmm...

i wonder if i manage control my heart, will i haf been able to live my life happily? wld i haf been able to go on n achieve more in life?

really makes me wonder...

life's indeed a wonder...

2007-07-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

today 1st day of sch. erms, nth special lahs. jus met up wif sch frens and had lessons. quite boring to say the least. anyway, was really glad to see my Class Advisor Mrs Annie Soon again. cos she apparently had some serious illness, rumoured to be heart-attack. but now she seems fine and still like always nag non-stop and blur like sotong.

well, did sth guilty today.

went hm at 4p.m to study today. but when i study till 8 p.m. i slacked and went to play bball. actually not really play but jus for some shooting. cos my shots r getting way too soft. need some practice.

anyway, at abt 9p.m, 3 china guys came. one which i've seen and played wif b4. but i doubt he rmbed me. then asked me to play 2 on 2. i was like "fine, let's roll".

they were rather tall and big for their age. tink they're abt 15-17. it was quite fun playing wif them. then they asked me, "can u dunk?" then i was like i used to be able. then they asked for demostration. i was ok wif it and asked them not to expect much...

then somehow, i barely dunked the ball. do keep in mind tat the basket at e court i played ain't really regulation height. and they were like "COOL!" while i was like "phew, how lucky". haha!

then they asked me to show them some moves i made. actually, they're my fav moves and i was abit reluctant. but nvm lahs, teach them lohs. but they jus can't do it. haha! cos i practiced for like sometime b4 i so-called mastered it. oh well...

this is for Zi Lin. u wanted my schedule and i'll jus post it here. i tink the thailand trip i might be going. cos exams r in Sept and holidays in Oct. so i might jus make it.

Mon: 9-4
Tues: 10-2
Wed: 9-3
Thurs: 9-12
Fri: 9-12

kk, need to return to my books. hope to meet up wif Zi Lin FATFAT real soon!

2007-07-08T22:28:00.001+08:00

it's working. i noe it is. from her response, it definitely is...

i wonder y i haf to do it this way. a new kinda approach i never intended to use to forget. it's despicable i admit. but i dun wish to be too close. it seems tat being frens is jus not sth for me.

i'm sorry it turned out this way. it's nice of u to say "let's be frens". it's really kind. i really mean it. but i'm sorry it wun be this way...

i dun hate u at all. but to be honest, i hope u hate me real bad. so we wun be close. haha! wat a childish thought. but it might jus work...

seriously, i dunnoe wat to do...

2007-07-08T13:10:00.000+08:00

i try but i can't seem to get myself to think of anything but you
your breath on my face, your warm gentle kiss
i taste the truth
i taste the truth
you know what i came here for
so i won't ask for more

CHORUS:
i wanna be with you
if only for one night
to be the one who's in your arms, who holds you tight
i wanna be with you
there's nothing more to say
there's nothing else i want more than to feel this way

i wanna be with you

so i'll hold you tonight like i would if you were mine
to hold forever more
and i'll savour each touch that i wanted so much
to feel before
to feel before
how beautiful it is
just to be like this

CHORUS

i wanna be with you ( i wanna be with you)
i wanna be with you

oh, baby, i can't fight this feeling anymore
it drives me crazy when i try to
so call my name, take my hand
can you make my wish, baby, your command

i wanna be with you
there's nothing more to say
there's nothing else i want more than to feel this way

i wanna be with you...

Mandy Moore - i wanna be with you

2007-07-07T09:09:00.000+08:00

well, woke up to a dark, grey and gloomy morning. it pretty much summed up feelings for the start of the day.

for those wondering wat i've been talking abt, jus take it tat i'm sprouting nonsense k? n also, jus to let everyone noe tat...

care and concern? i dun need any.
more questions? i wun answer any.
try pissing me off? u dun live to see wat happens to u.

off to work. bye.

2007-07-07T01:52:00.000+08:00

well, i guess she knows now. and she made herself clear.

i got no complaints, no remorse and no regrets. it was afterall one sided by my side.

i've fallen many times but i always stood right up again. so it's really ok ya know. i'm really ok. ha!

i wish u all e best wif him. pls understand i never tried nor intended to come in between both of u. i jus followed wat my heart yearns...

the bitter taste of love i tasted, i tasted it too many times b4...

well, i'm off to bed. only slept 3 hrs last night and i'm gonna do 1b again tml. i need rest, lots of rests. pls pray hard for me tat i dun lose slp tonight. i can't afford to... i'm tired, jus so tired...

2007-07-06T02:38:00.000+08:00

man i feel so dead now. so god damn tired lahs. watched transformers jus now. it totally kick ass man! so nice and excited, plus some humor too! imagine giant robots trying to hide themselves. haha! i'm definitely going to buy it's dvd or vcd when it's released.

oh to porky, i'm so sorry ok? pls dun be upset. i promise to watch harry potter wif u ok? =(

oh well, i was late for work today. i said i was sick but the fact is i wasn't. i couldn't slp and eventually i overslpt. i wish i really could jus stop tinking so much...

i wan to forget u. cos i tink it's better if we stay as frens. i hope i can avoid u w/o u knowing. it's hard but i'll try. i'll try...

got to slp. need to wake up at 6am and tat means 3 hrs of slp only. arggh! i pray i wun be late tml...

ps: i miss u silently in my heart.

2007-07-04T13:49:00.000+08:00

my confessions...

lately and somehow, my feelings for u grew. however, i hope tat it will stop. i hate 3rd parties and i hope i won't be one. it's hard to restrain myself...

time wif u was really great and fun. i want more of it but i dun wan to be addicted to it. i certainly hope u feel e way too.

i really hate to say it here, but i need to escape to my sanctuary where i feel peace.

wif regrets, i tink i love u...

2007-07-02T01:47:00.000+08:00

oops! late late post! i'm gonna blog abt my weekend so jus sit back n enjoy! =)

Saturday:

went Sentosa staff gathering aka "Oscar night". it was a blast! fun games, lame but interesting performances, stupid songs abt dicks and more. haha! it was indeed fun. after tat we had great food and great music. so we partied the night away... at the party, managed to spend some time wif FATFAT zi lin. haha! it's a pity she couldn't go to St James wif us. =(

after tat, went St James to club wif amir, stacy, halim, azizah, karen nanny and tat drunk guy firdaus. we went very late. in fact, amir n i only clubbed for like 15 mins. =( well, i didn't really like trance to be honest but my dancing cells still reacted to the music. i like the decor of St James! it's spacious! maybe it was late. haha!

after tat we chill out awhile outside harbour front center. then firdaus wif his drunk actions amused me alot. haha! he really talked alot of crap. then i went hm at 6 plus to get ready for sunday.

but first, some pictures first. courtesy of patrice. =)

from right: myself, patrice, amir and i dunnoe the name of the other 2 guys. oops, my bad

myself and FatFat zi lin! miss u so so much!

Sunday:

woke up wif a aching head at 2.15p.m. quickly had lunch and got ready to go down to Bukit Batok CC to help porky and her frens sell ice cream!

well, things weren't going very well so i decided to help out. i took their discount coupons out and went for some hard-selling. i tink it helped cos the people i approached did buy ok! plus some of e people tat i personally lead them to the stall bought ice cream too! wahs! so happy to be able to be of some use.

after tat, porky said. "dino, can help me sell all this loaves of bread?" i was like ARGGH! cos there's 2 big plastic bags full of bread. inside 1 bag was like 6 packets of bread lohs. but fortunately, i was given a helper...

ta da! this is cheryl! the helper porky assigned to help me sell bread. well, i suggested we go to the HDB estates to sell and it worked like a charm! we managed to finish selling the 2 big bags in one block. power la ma! of course, i sold e most ok! *shows off* =)

pictures wif porky!

then after the whole bazzar, helped porky carry her stuff back hm. she asked her mum treat me eat dinner, so nice of her. =) then on the bus she said her mum likes me sia. i was like ??? really? haha! but then she refused to tell me wat her mum liked abt me, all night long. arggh!

then we watched harry potter on her BIG BIG tv. so nice to be able to spend time wif porky like tat. her hse very nice n comfy. BUT the best part was her dog, choki! hostile to me at first but gradually like lahs. her dog cute sia. haha! i'm in love wif it.

my smile says it all...

2007-06-30T05:19:00.000+08:00

oh my, wat a tiring day!

went queensway for some shopping and got a grey shirt there. bloody hell, no discount! =( then met Amir at 9 plus p.m and went bugis, where i got myself a purple t-shirt and yes, my pink top. =)

seriously, i dun tink pink suits me very well. dunnoe lehs. cos dun really feel right. but but, i'll try to adapt cos it's for Oscar night.

pink button shirt wif long sleeves + my white "skull" belt + blue jeans + white shoes = nice?

hmmm. maybe cutting my bird hair later on when i wake up might help. ;p

ZZZzzzz...

2007-06-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

work today was BORING! no people!

yeah, was pissed off by this new guy from IOS. keep talking thrash to me. come on bro, get a life. imagine working my ass of cleaning the imbiah bunkers and there's a bugger bugging me. FUCK OFF! grrr! guess wat, he's jus as irritating after work.

well, not rostered for work for the next 2 days. maybe this is wat i shld plan for this week...

Tuesday: go shop for a PINK top. cool sia. cos never wear pink b4. then gonna wear pink wif Amir during "Oscar night". most prob a long sleeved buttoned shirt lahs. will it be nice on me? hmmm...

Wednesday: dunnoe wat to do lehs. chiong project work? arggh!

Thursday: work lohs, wat else? darns, working 2R wif Patrice. more butt spanking. my wife ain't gonna be happy. rite porky? ;p

Friday: stay at hm and wait for my "deal or no deal" prizes...

Saturday: Oscar night and clubbing at St James Power Station. cool! never go b4! must enjoy!

Sunday: dunnoe lehs, not working. suggestions?

oh ya, jus now porky damn sweet lahs. i on-line on MSN and the first thing she said " dino hubby!". wahs, so sweet lahs. how i wish i got a gf or a wife now and she does it to me everyday when i come hm. i'll be damn content. too bad porky ain't my REAL wife. LoL! ;p

yeah, simple me for u...

2007-06-23T16:22:00.000+08:00

i must declare this, before i get into more trouble.

i'm not in love wif someone in the island!!!

so get tat into ur god damn heads! will ya!? physical attraction ain't called LOVE! arggh. =(

if u wanna noe y, all i'll say is... i'm still stuck in the past.

heh! i'll try not to tink abt it...

gtg to porky's party. bye! =)

2007-06-23T04:08:00.000+08:00

jus came back from Mustafa centre 2 hrs ago. it's my first time there and it was great! it's like shopping centre wif endless shops. or was there even shops to begin wif? okok, jus a huge huge departmental store.

had loads of fun there wif the sentosa peeps. love u guys man, u people r the reason y i love my work so much. cos there's always fun after work.

yeah, here comes the bad news. i'm sick lahs! arggh! on the eve of porky's birthday. the terrible tummy aches last last time plus the headache at work yesterday is killing me. can't believe i managed to get thru the headache. it's such a pain. arggh.

ok, gotta slp. need slp, love slp. ZZZZzzzzzz...

2007-06-21T20:40:00.000+08:00

wat a day yesterday was!

yeah, was waiting for the others to get ready for the clubbing session last nite. while waiting, i was watching "deal or no deal". then i got bored and decided to join the sms contest. there're 6 cases and 1 of it contains $1000. 1 lucky winner will walk away wif $1000 in cold hard cash!

n guess wat? i guessed e right case. but unfortunately, i wasn't the lucky $1000 winner. but but! i won a $200 MTM voucher and 1 year supply of "heaven and earth" drinks! kinda excited cos i never win anything from tv shows before! =)

well then, to MOS i went! unfortunately, at the time of publish, no pictures. haha!

well, nth much to talk abt at MOS. jus clubbed wif amir, halim, stacy, miru, karen. hmmm. stacy is a cute thing when she danced. and she said i was sexy when dancing! WAHAHA! i bet she didn't really mean it though. =( And amir sure knows how to dance! must learn from him next time so i can score wif the gals! WAHAHA! =)

n to Porky Porky, i didn't touch any gals and so didn't DO ANYTHING WRONG. so dun divorce me ar! haha! ;p

so looking forward to work tml. jus love tat sunny island wif those beautiful people. =)

2007-06-20T14:45:00.001+08:00

this is gonna be a long entry. so close the damn browser now if u dun wanna read it. ;p

The adventures of work @ Sentosa day 3!

well, work yesterday was damn peaceful lahs. even more peaceful then monday. in other words, even more boring. but something bad was abt to happen...

in the afternoon, 8 guests came to Merlion with "imbiah thrill" package. which does not include merlion. then they did not realise tat the admission ops staff at GAC sold them the wrong package. they initialy wanted "imbiah hop" but were give "imbiah thrill" instead as the absent-minded staff there most probably mistook them as they were the same price.

then after negotiation between my IC, amir and the admission ops duty supervior, they told us to go to the "imbiah ticketing" to change the tickets. so i took the tickets and went. the whole stupid thing abt this was when i was there, none of the staff was informed abt it. and when i needed contact numbers to verify details, they said "we dun haf our supervior's numbers" and guess wat, it came from their IC's mouth.

after 30 plus minutes of waiting, finally they said...

*laughs* "you got it wrong, you're supposed to go to 'imbah station' to change the tickets"

nonsence, absolute bullshit. i was certain tat we were told by their duty supervisor tat it was "imbiah ticketing". yet they dare to laught abt their mistake. total load of bull crap.

anyway, i did not want to pick a fight there as i need the tickets urgently and there were guests around. thankfully, when i returned to the guest, they were all smiles and i was tipped, along wif a little "pig" soft toy. they were very kind and outgoing, even though they're quite demanding at first.

Conclusion: admission ops management sucks and their staff are clearly unprofessional. poor communication resulted in my 30 plus mins of waiting. and how can they not have their supervisor's contact numbers? how can they say they were not informed after 30 mins? clearly a sad case of unprofessionalism. =(

2007-06-19T00:16:00.000+08:00

The adventures of work @ Sentosa day 2!

well, today or rather yesterday was monday. so tat means not much people will be in the island. so naturally, it was damn peaceful. i was so bored tat i started disturbing Arinah all day long. haha! lack of challenges at work drives me crazy!

oh ya, tat stupid Patrice spanked my arse again and again and again today! arggh! hate it! =( met some weird people at work. made me have to tink like thrice jus to understand them. well, tat's a challenge. HA!

yeah, jus knew today tat tracy qutting. kinda sad though i dun work often wif her. well, a person gotta move on when she gotta. righty?

Met Karen (nanny) at bunkers and her fren. dunnoe wat her name is though. kinda bad cos she knows my name yet i dun know her name. haha! anyway, the first thing she said abt me is tat i'm old. WTF! haha! she tot i was 25 when i'm only 20. am i really tat old?

anyway, we met up wif Zi Lin n company and had dinner together. then took bus wif tat gal whom i dun know her name hm. i'm kinda bad to say this but she got rather nice boobs. haha! nothing wrong to look at gals rite? haha!

alrighty, back to TV and soon to slp. tune in for day 3 tml. see ya!

2007-06-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

The adventures of work @ Sentosa day 1!

well, today's a rainy day. so, there wasn't much people. so didn't encounter much problems. was rather peaceful which is kind of rare.

anyway, had training for "machinery" designed for the physically-challenged. it's an old but very effective way to help those who can't walk up to the viewing galleries at the Merlion. we had to operate the machine and have to take turns to sit on the wheel chair, so tat we can experience for ourselves how the guest would feel. anyway, i'm proud to say i managed to master the techniques on the first try. jus tat i had some problems with the seat belt. =(

after work, went to Vivo and to Topman. got a simple white shirt. pretty nice for me. saw a $139 adidas Tim Duncan basketball knickers. so tempted! arggh! waited 30 mins for karen to call me but she didn't. so i went hm. =(

anyway, happy birthday to my IC Amir! =)

the sad thing for today. read someone's blog today and saw something tat wasn't really nice. made me feel tat my efforts are wasted. darns, dun wanna tink abt it.

tune in tml for the adventures of work at Sentosa day 2!

2007-06-15T11:24:00.000+08:00

ok, i finally manage to fix my date and time for my posts!

now on to the main story for today! or rather yesterday!
Date: 14/06/2007
Time: 1.25p.m

Porky and i went to catch Fantasic 4! yeah but before tat, decided to be a nice guy and surprise her lahs. i Q like 45 mins plus to buy her "Miss Donuts" at BP plaza. then i tried to hide it but obviously it failed lahs. so the element of surprise obviously gone but at least i can take heart tat she really liked it. =)

The Silver Surfer at display at LIDO. and who's tat beside him? The Green Surfer? haha!

oh ya, the movie was on me and the popcorn too. but this so called "package" was porky's birhtday present! haha! anyway, the movie was great and Jessica Alba was like so GOD DAMN HOT lahs! last but not least, this time the cinema was spacious, comfortable and have excellent sound surround system. i'm content! =)

then we went to Bugis and saw this... tat's the Fantastic 4 mobile!

despite having 7 donuts and popcorn, we soon got hungry again. so off to pasta mania we went!

oh ya, when people or rather pigs get hungry, they do stupid things! haha! but the most stupid thing at pasta mania was tat the waiters. it's like they took our order and gave us a tag(as seen on porky's head). but we did not take the reciept. then how come w/o the reciept they dunnoe our orders? keep asking us for the reciept? damn stupid lahs. i tot they will relay to their servers and chef respectively de lohs. when i work in the F&B industry, this is how it was practised. maybe pasta mania shld hire me as their manager! ;p

alrighty, this is porky's so called "rocky punch". but i wld tink "porky punch" sounds and suits her better! haha! nonsence!

oh ya, jus recieved my POM results. a FUCKING 30/50! shit! shit! shit! like shit! disappointment lohs...

alrighty, got to go. need to haf lunch and go the SWCDC to collect posters and distribute it the MRT stations from Boon Lat MRT to Marsiling MRT. worky worky work!

2007-06-11T21:49:00.000+08:00

11 June 2007, 10.00p.m

i'm back! =)

oh man, today's POM paper SUCKED! it was bloody FUCKED UP! arggh! how can Business Info Tech lecturers set Business Admin papers? bloody hell. FUCKED UP Qs!

enuff of tat, guess where i went? to the gym wif porky! n wif peh sun too!

yeah man, it was a great work out. 1st for my body, then for my BLOODY PISSED mind. all thks to porky! i felt better. but the paper? forget it...

look! look! look!

look at porky work out! HOT eh? haha! she wants to look great in all her loot from shopping while i jus wanna score wif the gals. hehe. joking lahs. i seriously need to get in shape. been gaining some weight lohs. arggh! maybe i'll go running more often.

till next time, bye! =)

2007-06-04T18:18:00.000+08:00

4 june 2007, 6.20p.m

wow, jus finished watching "300" on my com. damn! it was such a great movie! too bad i missed it when it was still on the screens. no choice but to settle for downloaded version, courtesy of Talson. =)

drats. POM is such a bother. how am i gonna get 6 chapters worth of meaningless text into my head. i wan my A n i'm gonna get it. i wan my A!!! damn!

i dunnoe man, the loneliness returned...

i tot i was happy. i really thought so. i have great friends who they call me their friend in return. i have basketball, my one and only true materialistic love. i have school where i strive to acheive my As. i have work, where i get to meet people and smile. y am i still unhappy?

it's scary to find myself forgetting the past. something that i tot i wld wan to do and move on. but somehow it was jus scary. i wished i could be strong but the loneliness at night suffocates me. i always hated the moment before i fall asleep. the darkness tat engulfed me, reminding me how lonely i really was...

i am strong, still strong. but i'm tired of putting on a smiling mask everyday. the only place where i can pour all my feelings out is here, my own blog. i thank those who tried to comfort me, those who seen my tears of anguish when i'm really down. but i'm afraid i've failed you. nearing a year since we parted, those memories remained...

it's ironic to say that my best times were with the woman that broke my heart the most...

well, i turn to face the music. i will walk alone... alone...

2007-06-01T12:16:00.000+08:00

1 June 2007, 12.20p.m

BFS CA was a piece of cake! wahaha! 40/40? or maybe 37/40? it was tat easy! as long it's an A. i'll be happy!

well, watched Pirates of the Carribean wif porky! Woo Hoo! my fav movie! went to town to meet up wif her after her work. went LIDO to watch n i must say i was pretty disappointed...

WHY? WHY? WHY?

it's becos of the cinema lahs. the screen is like so small and the sound system sucked! and the worst part? the SEATS. it was so cramped and the seat is not comfortable at all! and poor porky had her knees in pain when a stupid indian man sat so hard infront of her and the back of his seat hit porky!

anyway, the movie itself was great. "WELCOME TO SINGAPORE!" wahaha! shall post the photos miss porky took if time or fate permits. can't get sick of it really. haha! but sometimes abit pai seh, cos there's alot of ppl looking! but who can blame us? we're jus having fun! ;p

2007-05-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

29 May 2007, 10.15p.m

wah seh. tml CA for BFS. stress ar.

studied jus now at BP plaza MOS Burger. starting to like it there ever since the "no studying" rule at Starbucks. i like the environment there. dunnoe y but i jus like there. except all the noise tat is.

i feel rather prepared for the CA tml. dun really wan to memorise tat much. jus read n understand. hopefully the paper is easy tml. haha!

thurs going to meet Porky, the hot chick (or pig) to watch movie! Pirates of the carribean! yeahs! dying to watch the movie!

and yeah, managed to settle my sis's bday present wif a $21 BOA cd. haha! now only need to stress abt someone's present. arggh!

2007-05-27T23:21:00.000+08:00

27 May 2007, 11.30p.m

ok, i got nothing to do now so i'm blogging. so i'll jus type some random nonsence for everyone to read.

wat shld i talk abt? dunnoe lehs. how abt telling u abt my great fren! she is Porky!

sexy isn't she? her name is Serene Yeo Ying Mei and her nickname by me is Porky. i gave her the nickname ok! cute rite? haha! i forgot how i gave her this nickname but i tink it is becos i called her a pig or sth. then she say not cute. then i tot of this cartoon character in loonely tunes. haha!

then guess wat her fave hobbies are? typical gal favourites like shopping, look at cute guys and last but not least...

yes u got it! Cam-Whoring! seriously ar, i dunnoe y gals call it "Cam-Whoring" lohs. sounds damn wrong lahs. haha! anyway, she likes to take pictures when i'm studying wif her. it is VERY IRRITATING but as her fren, i shall put up wif it. =) but somehow hors, she makes me look nice in photos lahs. haha! dunnoe y lehs... maybe humans look better beside pigs! haha!

look! i look gd rite? haha!

enuff of the nonsence already. jus wan to pay her a tribute. cos she's jus a great fren to be wif. although i got many many great frens. she's one of the best! many thanks for lighting up my life.

here, this is a old song by Coco Lee. "before i fall in love" i find it damn nice lahs. do take in mind tat the song below is totally unrelated to the above nonsence u've read. jus in case...

Someone to have and hold

with all my heart and soul

I need to know before i fall in love

Someone who stay around

through all my ups and downs

Please tell me now before i fall in love...