Monday, May 26, 2008
Aikido class in a few hours time.But i dun really feel like going. when i signed up for this course, i wanted to protect someone else before i even thought about myself. Everything i did, i will think about the person first...But nevermind, from today onwards i will protect myself. becos that person doesn't need my protection anymore. or rather, i chose not to anymore. i will protect myself and only myself from now onwards...Sadly, i've always seen negative events that happen before my eyes that never fails to change my perception of Love. The way a certain couple i know behaved when they quarreled on yesterday's night was hideous. And the latest news i got today was them breaking up. you can never imagine how difficult, how awkward and how helpless i felt when i tried to help them through everything.Having no choice to use my last resort, i asked that person for a little favor, for help. But all i got was a "i couldn't be bothered cause it's your problem and i won't make a difference" crap. it was so cold that i got a flu last night. heh. just kidding.Love is just so painful more than it is blissful. that's my conclusion over this years. so i'll guess i'll stay single. but you'll still see me flirting with other gals though...heh.
She lives vividly in my memories
6:24 pm
