Monday, June 04, 2007
4 june 2007, 6.20p.mwow, jus finished watching "300" on my com. damn! it was such a great movie! too bad i missed it when it was still on the screens. no choice but to settle for downloaded version, courtesy of Talson. =)drats. POM is such a bother. how am i gonna get 6 chapters worth of meaningless text into my head. i wan my A n i'm gonna get it. i wan my A!!! damn!i dunnoe man, the loneliness returned...i tot i was happy. i really thought so. i have great friends who they call me their friend in return. i have basketball, my one and only true materialistic love. i have school where i strive to acheive my As. i have work, where i get to meet people and smile. y am i still unhappy?it's scary to find myself forgetting the past. something that i tot i wld wan to do and move on. but somehow it was jus scary. i wished i could be strong but the loneliness at night suffocates me. i always hated the moment before i fall asleep. the darkness tat engulfed me, reminding me how lonely i really was...i am strong, still strong. but i'm tired of putting on a smiling mask everyday. the only place where i can pour all my feelings out is here, my own blog. i thank those who tried to comfort me, those who seen my tears of anguish when i'm really down. but i'm afraid i've failed you. nearing a year since we parted, those memories remained...it's ironic to say that my best times were with the woman that broke my heart the most...well, i turn to face the music. i will walk alone... alone...
She lives vividly in my memories
6:18 pm
