Saturday, March 17, 2007
17 Mar 07, 11.50p.mdamn, today i was SO put to shame by my "good" frens!there's this gal i really wanted to know lately and she happens to be my fren Yi Xiang's sister. her name is Yi Hui. let's call her YH k?then i was playing basketball and then Ah Cai aka Indian man, YH and Yi Xiang n her gf came. at first everything went fine. then they started to wan to see my phone. then i was like..."jia liat lahs, confirm wan to see my porn collection lohs."yes, i admit i do watch but which NORMAL guy dun? anyway, i quickly took out e memory card and hid it in my wallet. but damn, they found out anyway. then guess wat, YH n e others all took turns n watch sia. i seriously wanted to hide my head in the ground lohs. so ashamed lohs.tat was it lahs, gone case liaos. no more chance or wat so ever. first impression (actually 2nd or 3rd?) wasted. i dun wan her to tink tat i'm a horny guy sia. i'm not tat kind of guy tat go into a relationship jus for sex...yes, once again i admit tat i did haf sexual intercourse wif my ex gf (obviously who...) but i didn't force her or wat lohs. it was mutual consent...yeah, tink i'm a jerk or something but i swear i wasn't toying wif her feelings. i didn't mind tat she was molested b4 and i stood by her when she was recovering from e truma. i gave up many things to be wif her and encouraged her when she faced difficult problems. i'm a jerk? up to u to decide. and i'm not gonna mention wat kind of bullshit she did...anyway, i really wan to haf a stable, committed and long-lasting relationship now. and YH seems to be the kind of gal i'm looking for. though i dun really noe her tat well, but she's similar to my ex gf. the qualities i look for in a potential gf...but...GONE CASE lahs! after wat my "good" frens did, i didn't even dare look at her sia. let alone say our byes byes. seriously no hope already. hopefully things chance for e better soon...oh ya, one more thing. my birthday is on 24 March! on next sat. but i'm lonely sia. my frens all attending another fren's wedding and i can't go becos of some stupid taboos. arggh! will someone be nice n ask me out for a movie or dinner? i'm not expecting any presents at all... =(
She lives vividly in my memories
11:47 pm
