Sunday, February 11, 2007
11 Feb 07, 7.15p.mdidn't blog for a few days already, got so much to say...my dad had his operation and it was quite successful. but the doctors said anything might happen though. how can such statements ease my heart? my aunt visited my dad and said he was feeling breathless again. how can tat be when i saw him in a quite stable condition? i really dunnoe and i'm still worried...suddenly i jus feel so lonely. not becos i dun haf a gf but jus tat i'm missing out so much time wif my frens. frens at work, sch, neighbourhood, SHIYEP2 and basketball... i miss them so much. i managed to meet up wif some of my frens last night. we drove to Lau Pat Sat and had supper there. i talked wif one of my basketball frens and he asked me to play basketball more often wif him. and maybe we can represent Cashew CSC in this year's inter-CSC Basketball Tournament Mens’ Open Category. i'm so happy to hear tat. so i must work hard and train!lately being reading some of my HK frens's blog. they seem so busy, so happy. i miss all of them. but i dun tink i'll be going to HK again in march or april. cos i dun wish to leave my dad in s'pore. though my aunt and uncle will take care of him, i wan to be somewhere near. feel so constrained. arggh!i need to restructure my life. i wan to be happy and live my life wif meaning, wif some purpose. to be honest, i'm 20 this year and i seriously achieved nothing significant in my life. sports? maybe i did achieve something but i dun tink i maximised my potential. lastly, i'm dateless for valentine day. though not something not has not happen in my life. but deep in my heart, i miss my ex gf. she's my first love and i still love her. though i tried to move on countless of times, i failed. cos the memories of our time together will touch my heart and make me forget everything else. it's been more then 6 months since we broke up but i still can't forget...
She lives vividly in my memories
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