Monday, February 26, 2007
26 Feb 07, 10.00a.mwat's wrong wif me???
i can't explain y but i'm jus so attracted to her. if i compare her to a product, she will be a simple product wif unattractive packaging. but somehow, i jus so attracted to her...
i'm really confused. do i like her? everytime i see her, i feel happy. i wonder how she feels abt me? does she like me? haha! i'm feeling like an idiot, saying all these stupid things here...
but i really dunnoe. i'm jus not ready for another relationship. i can't forget my ex gf yet. maybe when one day i do, i'll woo her wif all my heart...sounds mushy dun it? haha!
She lives vividly in my memories
10:05 am
Saturday, February 24, 2007
24 Feb 07, 8.30p.myeahs! almost time to knock off!wow, haven work at Sentosa for quite sometime. really miss this place alot. anyway, work was average lahs. jus tat i haf to learn some new operational stuff. piece of cake! =) oh! almost forgot to add tat i recieved 2 Red packets from 2 tour guides sia! wahaha! ;phmmm. finally back at meetings at SHIYEP2, though i didn't attend today's meeting as i was working. so excited abt the whole project! will i finally achieve something significant in my life? i hope so...damn angry lahs, my computer spoil lahs! can't use the internet! arggh! tat means can't MSN!!! arggh! ANGRY!
She lives vividly in my memories
8:31 pm
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
14 Feb 07, 11p.mfirstly, happy valentines day to all loving couples out there!haha! for once in my life, i didn't spend money on gals this year. haha! wat an achievement! =) but it was lonely though. was supposed to go out wif my classmate yvonne but she had some family prob so we didn't go out. a pity though, she is rather pretty lahs. haha! ;pso wat did i do instead? i got so bored and decided to take my basketball down to the basketball court and shoot ball for an hour. so no life rite? haha! i know...deep down i thought of u but the fact remains, u're gone from my life forever... happy valentines day...
She lives vividly in my memories
11:01 pm
Sunday, February 11, 2007
11 Feb 07, 7.15p.mdidn't blog for a few days already, got so much to say...my dad had his operation and it was quite successful. but the doctors said anything might happen though. how can such statements ease my heart? my aunt visited my dad and said he was feeling breathless again. how can tat be when i saw him in a quite stable condition? i really dunnoe and i'm still worried...suddenly i jus feel so lonely. not becos i dun haf a gf but jus tat i'm missing out so much time wif my frens. frens at work, sch, neighbourhood, SHIYEP2 and basketball... i miss them so much. i managed to meet up wif some of my frens last night. we drove to Lau Pat Sat and had supper there. i talked wif one of my basketball frens and he asked me to play basketball more often wif him. and maybe we can represent Cashew CSC in this year's inter-CSC Basketball Tournament Mens’ Open Category. i'm so happy to hear tat. so i must work hard and train!lately being reading some of my HK frens's blog. they seem so busy, so happy. i miss all of them. but i dun tink i'll be going to HK again in march or april. cos i dun wish to leave my dad in s'pore. though my aunt and uncle will take care of him, i wan to be somewhere near. feel so constrained. arggh!i need to restructure my life. i wan to be happy and live my life wif meaning, wif some purpose. to be honest, i'm 20 this year and i seriously achieved nothing significant in my life. sports? maybe i did achieve something but i dun tink i maximised my potential. lastly, i'm dateless for valentine day. though not something not has not happen in my life. but deep in my heart, i miss my ex gf. she's my first love and i still love her. though i tried to move on countless of times, i failed. cos the memories of our time together will touch my heart and make me forget everything else. it's been more then 6 months since we broke up but i still can't forget...
She lives vividly in my memories
7:18 pm
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
06 Feb 07, 8.15p.mphew, to run abt the basketball court and sweating it all out feels great! =) jus started to play the game again with my frens yesterday and it was really fun! to joke and play together once again took some stress off myself. i jus love it when i play wif my frens. it's some sort of gathering since we're all busy wif our lives.to be honest, quite surprised to see myself still being able to play pretty well after not touching the ball for some months. but still feel abit slow though. gotta work hard! i jus love the game... ;ptoday the hospital jus called. they said my dad's condition is stable now. so they asked if i'm 21, so tat i can decide if i wan my dad to undergo the operation. sadly, i'm only 20 and i dun wish to make any decisions. though it's my dad, i dun wan to make this kind of decisions. to be honest, i'm scared. scared of the future, scared of everything. i'm not as brave as i tink i am. but i will face the music if i haf to. cos i haf to...anyway, i can't make the decision so my dad's brother or sister is making it. and if they agree, they operation will be on this thursday. i pray tat everything will go smoothly cos the doctor said there's this 5-10% of fatal risk. *sigh...*arggh! i'm still sick. maybe u guys can start calling me the "sickly boy"...
She lives vividly in my memories
8:16 pm
Sunday, February 04, 2007
04 Feb 07, 9.10p.marggh! nothing is going rite for me now!!!yesterday, was working half way then recieved news tat my father had a heart attack and was admitted to e hospital. he was breathless and doc said tat water had entered his heart. thus making him feeling so breathless. doctor also said tat he will have to undergo another operation tat may haf a fatal result of 5-10%. if not fatal, tat operation may damage his kidneys or cause him to suffer a stroke. also he jus had an opearation last year on his swelling artery and now he is like this again. feel so worried and uncertain abt the future.worse still, i'm sick. having flu and a bad bad cough. dunnoe if i'm also having fever anot. feel so tired and weak now. arggh...with so much going on, how am i going to concentrate on my sch work and SHIYEP2 work? i really feel depressed lahs. maybe the doctor is rite, i'm suffering from stress. singapore is now trailing by 1 goal in the 2nd leg final of the ASEAN football championship. though it's still 2-2 on agregate, all i can do is pray for singapore to win.EDIT: wahs!!! Singapore won! khairul Amir scored in the 81st min to equalise and put singapore 3-2 in agregate! OKAY!
* feel so lonely, baby i'm so lonely. i miss _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ *
She lives vividly in my memories
9:05 pm
Friday, February 02, 2007
2 Feb 07, 12.30a.margggh!e laptop i loaned from my uncle kenna virus lahs. hopefully a mild one. damn pissed off lahs. how can it happen to me sia? not fair!!! damn damn damn!had my haircut today. much shorter and neater. but wif advices from stephanie, i still need to change alot of things on me. learn how to dress better, head down to e gym more often, learn how gel my hair and change my glasses. haha! tml gonna do filming for my TPS project! time for my acting skills to kick in again. haha!* somehow i feel depressed telling u tat i'm not a university student. low confidence... *
She lives vividly in my memories
12:22 am
