Tuesday, October 24, 2006
24 Oct 06, 9.00a.mhaha! was so damn early for work today. reach Merlion at 8.20a.m lohs. n e bus ride today was only 30 mins. damn freaking fast lahs. today hari raya(not sure of e spelling), so happy happy for all my Muslim frens out there! hmmm. my life now? nth much to say actually. sch? e pace is slowly increasing. but i'm still coping fine. i miss working when i'm at sch. but study is a must! LoL! had 2 gd days of BBALL wif my frens, damn enjoyable. n speeding on e highway in my fren's car. btw, i'm not driving. haha! n some stunts wif e car too. so exciting!!! can't wait to get my driving license n try those stunts myself. dun worry, they're not tat dangerous as u tink it is... ;pmy emotions???tell u guys sth cos u're e few tat r worthy enuff to noe. i'm really tired. i noe i said a thousand times tat i've put e past behind, i dun love her n such. NO! i'm in fact very lonely. i tot wif my fren's company, i wld be fine. but when i'm alone at hm or anywhere else, i feel fear n loneliness...i guessed i lost didn't i? checked her friendster profile jus now n saw their pic. but i guess they broke up already bahs. cos tat pic wrote " those were the days". or maybe not? i dunnoe n i really dun care. all i wan is to forget her, sth which is difficult for me...maybe i really loved her during our short 6 months n 18 days together. i dunnoe. those sweet memories will stay wif me but i wan to forget e pain. it's really hard. when ppl talk abt her to me or vice versa, i'll put on a brave front n say all kind of things to make myself look strong. but deep down, i'm not...* e confused one *
She lives vividly in my memories
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