Saturday, September 30, 2006
30 Sept 06, 11.30p.mhmmm. today's my off day lahs. but i was still at Sentosa. not working but... read on bahs!was at hm today in e morning, actually wanted to go Atrium to see Benny n Tong Lam's ID match one. but then hor, Linda msged me lohs. haha! who else? then asked me buy lunch for her lohs. haha! then i very nice hor, off day still went to Sentosa to bring her lunch lohs. such a sweet guy rite? haha! but life is not a bed of roses... when i left hse, it was abt 12.30p.m lahs. then she suddenly msged me saying tat she might be having her lunch at 1p.m instead of 2p.m. then i panick already lahs. cos not possible to reach Sentosa from my hse within 30 mins lohs. then i told her i'll reach at abt 1..30p.m lohs.then guess wat? rain lahs! then e bus damn slow. then reach Harbour Front at 1.25p.m. then i msged her, telling her i'll be late n WIll reach Merlion at 1.45p.m. then NB! e stupid bus driver happily take his own sweet time lahs, then when he got onto e bus, it was bloody 1.45p.m liaos lohs. in my mind i was like... "i'm a goner for sure"then i faster call her to buy sth to eat lohs. then when i finally reach Merlion drenched, she was at Merlion's ticket booth wif her fren. then she never eat anything sia. was still waiting for me to bring her lunch lohs. then she eat half way she went back to work le. feel so damn guilty man, keep apologising to her...then waited for her to knock off lohs. then in e meantime was wif Zi Lin lahs. then waited for her to knock off too. then was waiting for LInda to reply my msg. then i was dumb sia, wait till impatient then say wanna accompany Zi Lin lohs. then when i was in e train, Linda replied. so, i panicked again. luckily Zi Lin very understanding, then i went back Sentosa lohs.then waited for her at Harbour Front. then she changed then we sat down somewhere n talked while waiting for her fren lahs. dun see her shy shy de ar, got damn alot of things to say sia. we talked from sports to religion sia. WTH rite? haha!then her fren come liaos lohs. then didn't really get to talk to her much le. then they went for dinner lohs. oh ya! forget to add tat i gave her a Merlion Keychain lahs. cos she said yesterday tat she always wanted tat, so i tot i'll jus get it for her lahs. haha! *Wished tat i can talk to her more, miss her*
She lives vividly in my memories
11:39 pm
30th sept 06, 12.40a.mkk. this is gonna be a long one. wootz! guess wat peeps. something unbelievable happened to me! yes me! Merlion n Sentosa staff shld noe wat happened lahs. it's abt Linda... hehe! ;pwell, Firdaus tat brat told me tat tues when i was absent from work. Linda asked abt me lohs. then Firdaus asked if she's interested in me ar? then she said "no lahs, jus wanna get to noe him better". hmmm. tat can't be true i tot to myself, then i asked Firdaus to stop bluffing me lahs. then he say dun believe find sometime to ask Linda lohs. then jus now at work, Firdaus n i had lunch lohs. then after tat we decided to take a walk up to Imbiah office as he need to change a new set of uniform. then we walked past IOS ticketing booth lohs. then guess who's there? who else but e star of e post today, Linda. haha!then Firdaus went up to her n told her tat e guy tat walked past her wif him is myself lohs. wif me hiding at a corner n listening intently. then he asked her if i wanted her number, will she gif? she said if i wan, ASK HIM TO ASK ME FOR IT!!! wahaha! i was shocked!then went down back to Merlion lohs. tot abt asking for her number for abt 15 mins lohs. damn decided to jus ask lohs, after all, i've got nth to lose mahs. then went up lahs, bought 2 SEASONS apple tea. then had a little chat wif her b4 giving her a drink. then slowly slowly asked for her number lohs. haha! guess wat!?I GOT IT!!!haha! then msged her e whole day lohs. abt wat i wun say lahs, dun bother asking abt it. then went back hm wif her lohs. lalalas! dun tell u all e whole story! ;phmmm. to add on, i helped out a elderly physically-challenged guest today n was tipped. but b4 i can react, i instinctively declined. hmmm. maybe i didn't tink it's neccessary bahs. hmmm.*can't keep u outta my head*
She lives vividly in my memories
12:45 am
Friday, September 29, 2006
29 sept 06, 9.00a.mblogging at work place now. tat stupid firdaus was so damn early today. wassup wif him man? eat wrong medicine i tink... -_-"damn. yesterday shouldn't haf called her. jus wanted to noe how's she is doing only. she's still in great pain. she told me she broke down infront of her frens a few days back n shocked them big time. y can she jus forget n move on? i told her tat i wished to be her soulmate. someone who can share her probs wif. tat sounds damn naive i noe. but though there's no more love between us, i hope there's at least friendship left for us. i really pray hard for her happiness. i jus wan to stand from afar n see her being happy, tat's all. i noe wat i did is shameful n caused her great pain. i truly wish tat she will be happy...though i really wish to move on, i can't do it knowing tat she's still very affected by wat happened last time, e huge scar i left her. i dunnoe wat to do lahs, to move on or not? or at least wait till she's ok then move on? damn...
She lives vividly in my memories
9:06 am
Thursday, September 28, 2006
28th sept 06, 8.45p.mdamn! my com at hm is still spoiled lahs. so i'm now blogging from my work place. btw, another sian thing is tat the new broadband internet connection at Merlion is down lohs. wtf sia. now using "dial-up" connection lohs. damn bloody slow lohs...hmmm. let's talk abt work today. today not say very crowded at Merlion lahs. normal normal only lohs. then met up wif my new colleagues, jasmine n siok mei. hehe. let's talk abt them instead bahs. ;psiok mei is e prettier of e 2 lahs. but she attached le. =( haha! but both of them r cute lohs. then also abt e same height also. haha! keep wanting to burst out in laughter lohs. cos like 2 short but cute gal walking together made me feel a bit wierd wierd de. haha! Jasmine is e bubbly gal who kept me laughing today. maybe i interacted wif her more then siok mei bahs. hmmm. tml she working shift 2R tml. so will still get to see them tml. haha! hmmm. maybe now tat i'm single n quite determined to forget my past, i tink i might be having a crush on many many gals. n obviously today i was very keen on Jasmine. though she's not very tall n pretty, it is her character is wat attracted me. but i really dun wan to get myself in a relationship now. cos it's obvious tat i'll be using e gal as a tool to forget joyce. i dun like this kinda thing, though at times i was guilty of doing it in e past. but if e gal likes me, tat's another story lahs. haha!*read ur blog entry n even when i'm not wif u, u're still experiencing pain form someone else. haiz. i really hope tat u're happy wif life now. i pray for u... i pray tat she'll never noe i haf her password cos i jus wan to care for her from afar...*
She lives vividly in my memories
8:53 pm
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
27th sept 06, 9.15p.mhad a phone call wif gina, talked abt joyce. we talked for abt 4 hrs plus lohs, from 1 a.m to 5 a.m lohs. haha! wat she said made me wake up. some of e things tat happened between joyce n i really made me confused. if she's still worth my love. wat's interesting was tat most of wat she said is so similar to wat Zi Lin said. haiz. when she deleted my blog, she wiped my memories away...hope i can really forget her. even if she wants to patch back, i tink our fate ended. really ended. all i wan now is for her to forgive me. n from there, i will move on bahs. hope time will heal all wounds. let her n myself be able to live a life w/o each other...i really hope tat she really didn't delete my blog. cos i still wan to haf those memories wif me. though i seriously noe tat we're over but i still wan to look back to those happy times. y can't i jus haf tat simple wish? enuff lahs, went sentosa wif serene today. very fun! we went to Merlion, Images Of Singapore and Sky Tower. damn fun lahs! had lots of crazy photo taking sessions wif her lohs. then we had our picture taken by Kodak. cost abt $6 lohs. not bad lahs, quite nice lehs! then went plaza sing to eat. hehe. missed those times we had lunch together n can talk abt anything under e sun.i really dunnoe lahs. i jus wanna be happy. i noe it's really really over. i haf goals in my life n i wanna achieve them. i wanna do well in ITE n get gd grades. managed pretty well but i really regreted being depressed during e crucial period b4 my semester exams. y do i haf to tink of her at tat time? make me feel so hard to concentrate lohs. if i can't get at least a 3.0 GPA for my 1st semester exams, i'm really gonna kick myself in e ass big time. damn it! i really wan to do well...
She lives vividly in my memories
9:17 pm
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
wow! i haf my blog again! thks jolynn. gonna ask my fren vincient to help me input a password soon. cos i got a tag board on this blog n i dun wan spammers to ruin my blog lohs, like wat they did in my previous one... n this blog is really gonna be my personal diary where i'll keep my joys or sorrows within me, only to be known to close n true frens. but then again, there're always hackers ard. so god bless tat they dun come n hack mine... =Xhmmm... this blog very nice lehs. i really like alot. i like e black background but to be honest, i still like my old blog skin done by her... haha! too bad it's deleted. all those memories all gone liaos. haiz. i'll jus try to live my life a step at a time bahs. today didn't go to work cos too tired out liaos. yesterday night body feel very warm sia. then called saras to gif me off lohs. then called Gautha in e morning. surprisingly, he didn't scold me or wat sia. haha! n lately he treat me quite nice lahs. maybe our relationship as supervisor n employee is getting better bahs. haha! i certainly hope so...later gonna go yishun to find SQ, benny they all. being so busy working till i dun even haf time to meet up wif them lohs. n wed gonna meet up wif serene. gonna bring her to sentosa to play! haha! n after tat go my fren vincient's hse to make e password thingy lohs. maybe since i haf so much time, i shld go n meet some of my frens i've missed lohs. like Gina Tan, Chang Qing, Chen Wei, Li Jun n CO. haha! missed those crazy but at times embarrassing times, esp when Gina is e mastermind of some lame pranks. haha!*all i wan is jus to haf a phone call wif u lohs. never did i intended to talk abt e past. jus wanna haf a pure frens relationship wif u. is it tat hard? i noe u hate me to e core but i'm still waiting for u to forgive me...*
She lives vividly in my memories
2:54 pm
ok the producer of this blog is here =) i'm helping sky to do up his blog. so u owe me a meal? haha just kidding. sky is a nice guy FULLSTOPhave fun =p*jolynn
She lives vividly in my memories
1:01 pm
